I Give Up....
I give up on everything ... on love, me, my life, my friends, my family ... everything that i ever believed in ... all of it ... i cant take it anymore ... i give up on it all ... djing ... owning my own club, moving to cali ... everything i ever hoped an wished for ... all gone ... i jus wish i would go to sleep an jus never wake up from my slumber ... but of course that would be too easy for me ... yur god has a much worser plan for me ... he wants me to actually live this hellish life, cause he knows that this would be better for me then dying. Grasping the 9mm i wonder why i dont jus do it myself ... times when i wish i wasnt so stubborn, so i could jus pull the trigger ... oh well ... i need sleep ... maybe then some of this confusion, an frustrations will pass ... god i hate my life ... nite everyone, an especially good nite to my special someone ... i wish u could only realize how much u mean to me ... but i fear that u may never know ....... sorry for everything i've done, jus been alil stressed lately ...