Why are girls so fucking frustrating!!!! (Another Rant)
So another few days go by and once again, i'm pissed , depressed, and frustrated with women. Fuck them all seriously ... even the ones that seem like they could be ok, show their psycho after time. I'm not only hating on women, so dont start with yur hate mail yet ladies. I know guys suck too. But i'm talking about me and my experiences with ladies i know.
Anyway ... I'm fucking tired of dealing with this endless bs. I'm so tired of jus dealing with everything. My life is jus running in this endless cycle of pain an sorrow. For every good thing that happens to me 10 more bad things emerges. So i'm not a pretty boy, with a rock hard, washboard stomach an arms made o f steel ... i'm better then any of those guys u'll ever see. Fuck them for being so naturally good looking, i'd like to stab them repeatly in the face and let them see what its like not to have everything handed to u because yur good looking. I sicking that i have to bust my hump hour after hjour, jus to come close to what they naturally have.
An u girls ... dont play innocent like u dont have a role in this. You feed their egos, by fucking over every nice guy u meet to go be with one of these pretty boy assholes. Using me to be yur shoulder to cry on b/c he beats or hes a dick to u. Well i'm sorry, my once caring heart has faded away ... i feel nothin anymore ... all my emotions have been beaten and exhausted to their limits .... My heart has grown cold, those that came close to making me realize that things arent so bad, only broke my heart even worse in the end. I'm not gonna name names ... but these women definitely should know who u are. And if yur not sure, but yur thinkin that u might one of these girls that i'm thinkin of then maybe u are.
I dont get what i have to do ... i dont know what the fuck u people want from me ... i bleed myself to death trying to figure these hings out. I hate the fact that i have to change who i am to make others happy or like me .... It makes me wanna vomit for what i have turned into. A shallow piece of nothingness ... jus a thing that creeps through the night, an hides in the shadows afraid to face the word.
I give up ... i give up on everything ... i would happily turn gay if it were in my power, but i'm to weak mindin to leave women. So this is my hell ... i'm stuck living this cycle, and u would think after being in it so long that i wouldve been used to it by now ... hahahahaha ... an i'm not ... not one bit. I'm surprised everytime someone i thought was special to me fucks me over or shows their fucking nuts. I know that its only a matter of time, but for some reason, i'm still surprised. People say i have alot of rage an anger built up inside of me, well all i have to say to them is, live my life with all my pain an sorrow and see how u feel. Fuck the idea of thinkin positive and getting yur hopes up to have them crushed before time an time again. Who wants that ... huh ... please tell me, who begs to be beaten to death, who begs to be ripped open by a dull fishing hook!? Not to many people that i know. So why should put my heart out on the table to be divoured by every vulture of a women? Why should i have to leave myself open for an attack so easily? Because i'm weak ... no matter how strong i am physically, i'm still weak when it comes to women mentally. I give into them like a crack whore gives into their unending addictions.
I'm ... i'm.... jus so tired of all of this ... maybe if it didnt happen so often, i would feel differently, but for this to be on a daily occurance ... wears me down so fast, i dont even have the time to build a wall to block my emotions anymore ... its comes so fast an so hard an from so many i dont know what to do. Well ok work is calling so i must leave this rant for now ... maybe today will be better for me ... hahahahahahahahhaa ... yea right. I hope to the girls that havent done shit to me yet that u excuse this post, sometimes i can be alittle dramatic an extreme. I jus really need to release alot of stuff all at once. An for that have done me wrong, I WISH YOU DEAD!!! Plain an simple. One person i will name is PRINCESS especially!!! Whereever u are i hope yur life is a 1000 times worse then mine, i hope that everything bad that is humanly possible happens to u over an over again. I jus want u to feel the pain that u put me through. I wish u have unending nightmares, an wake up in cold sweats. Thanks for reading my rant. ~Black Ray
Anyway ... I'm fucking tired of dealing with this endless bs. I'm so tired of jus dealing with everything. My life is jus running in this endless cycle of pain an sorrow. For every good thing that happens to me 10 more bad things emerges. So i'm not a pretty boy, with a rock hard, washboard stomach an arms made o f steel ... i'm better then any of those guys u'll ever see. Fuck them for being so naturally good looking, i'd like to stab them repeatly in the face and let them see what its like not to have everything handed to u because yur good looking. I sicking that i have to bust my hump hour after hjour, jus to come close to what they naturally have.
An u girls ... dont play innocent like u dont have a role in this. You feed their egos, by fucking over every nice guy u meet to go be with one of these pretty boy assholes. Using me to be yur shoulder to cry on b/c he beats or hes a dick to u. Well i'm sorry, my once caring heart has faded away ... i feel nothin anymore ... all my emotions have been beaten and exhausted to their limits .... My heart has grown cold, those that came close to making me realize that things arent so bad, only broke my heart even worse in the end. I'm not gonna name names ... but these women definitely should know who u are. And if yur not sure, but yur thinkin that u might one of these girls that i'm thinkin of then maybe u are.
I dont get what i have to do ... i dont know what the fuck u people want from me ... i bleed myself to death trying to figure these hings out. I hate the fact that i have to change who i am to make others happy or like me .... It makes me wanna vomit for what i have turned into. A shallow piece of nothingness ... jus a thing that creeps through the night, an hides in the shadows afraid to face the word.
I give up ... i give up on everything ... i would happily turn gay if it were in my power, but i'm to weak mindin to leave women. So this is my hell ... i'm stuck living this cycle, and u would think after being in it so long that i wouldve been used to it by now ... hahahahaha ... an i'm not ... not one bit. I'm surprised everytime someone i thought was special to me fucks me over or shows their fucking nuts. I know that its only a matter of time, but for some reason, i'm still surprised. People say i have alot of rage an anger built up inside of me, well all i have to say to them is, live my life with all my pain an sorrow and see how u feel. Fuck the idea of thinkin positive and getting yur hopes up to have them crushed before time an time again. Who wants that ... huh ... please tell me, who begs to be beaten to death, who begs to be ripped open by a dull fishing hook!? Not to many people that i know. So why should put my heart out on the table to be divoured by every vulture of a women? Why should i have to leave myself open for an attack so easily? Because i'm weak ... no matter how strong i am physically, i'm still weak when it comes to women mentally. I give into them like a crack whore gives into their unending addictions.
I'm ... i'm.... jus so tired of all of this ... maybe if it didnt happen so often, i would feel differently, but for this to be on a daily occurance ... wears me down so fast, i dont even have the time to build a wall to block my emotions anymore ... its comes so fast an so hard an from so many i dont know what to do. Well ok work is calling so i must leave this rant for now ... maybe today will be better for me ... hahahahahahahahhaa ... yea right. I hope to the girls that havent done shit to me yet that u excuse this post, sometimes i can be alittle dramatic an extreme. I jus really need to release alot of stuff all at once. An for that have done me wrong, I WISH YOU DEAD!!! Plain an simple. One person i will name is PRINCESS especially!!! Whereever u are i hope yur life is a 1000 times worse then mine, i hope that everything bad that is humanly possible happens to u over an over again. I jus want u to feel the pain that u put me through. I wish u have unending nightmares, an wake up in cold sweats. Thanks for reading my rant. ~Black Ray