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okay. so..
I really need something to do with my life.
I feel like I'm just throwing it away like it's nothing when I really have so many other things I could be doing that are actually worth something. Sometimes I really feel like it's pointless to even be alive. Things are just going down hill for me. There's always something going wrong. When I'm happy, I feel like there's still something sitting in the back of my head to remind me that not everything can be alright for 5 seconds.
I'm tired of having to pretend to be happy. It's like it just makes me more upset. I really don't even know whats going on or why I'm so fucking upset or mad or whatever. I mean not that it happens ALL the time. But it happens way too much. It's just like a whole bunch of things all put together. I guess some of it is probably stress..I don't know. But it's like killing me. Sometimes I really can't take it.
yeah. uhh. idk what else to say. so bye?
I really need something to do with my life.
I feel like I'm just throwing it away like it's nothing when I really have so many other things I could be doing that are actually worth something. Sometimes I really feel like it's pointless to even be alive. Things are just going down hill for me. There's always something going wrong. When I'm happy, I feel like there's still something sitting in the back of my head to remind me that not everything can be alright for 5 seconds.
I'm tired of having to pretend to be happy. It's like it just makes me more upset. I really don't even know whats going on or why I'm so fucking upset or mad or whatever. I mean not that it happens ALL the time. But it happens way too much. It's just like a whole bunch of things all put together. I guess some of it is probably stress..I don't know. But it's like killing me. Sometimes I really can't take it.
yeah. uhh. idk what else to say. so bye?