A long nights make for bad mornings
Sometimes I really dislike the morning after a show.
The show itself went ok, I think I played pretty horribly and I'm not going to make any excuses.
Something wasn't there last night, we've always had a weird stage presence,
we aren't a talk-to-the-crowd band.
We get up there and we unleash, there's no bells and whistles or anything,
but it's always felt good to me
The shows have been the only thing keeping me in the band,
I love the energy and I can't get that from any acoustic show...
but with the last few shows it seems to me like now even that is slipping away
two of the four of us always want to cut the set short, and they did so last night
and I said are you kidding me? We've been looking forward to the Electric Company gig because it is THE place to play in Utica, we had a ok turn out, people were enjoying it,
we had a good chunks of songs left on our list and plenty of time to play
but hey once they get it in their head that they want to stop, then that's all there really is to it.
I was able to milk 3 songs out of them, then as soon as we hit the last note they are gone without a goodbye.
They never stick around to show support for the other bands we share the gig with
and that's just not cool in my book, I understand if you don't want to stick around all night,
but at least stay for a couple of the next bands set since they just sat through ours.
So two of us left (leaving some of their equipment behind as usual) so I get a call this morning saying "oh i left this and this and this there, did you get it?" ... no I had no idea I was babysitting your gear.
"well can you go get? it you live closer" ... of course I can....
How many failures does it take to learn a lesson?
Well I'm still whipping boy so I guess a lot in my case.
The band that took the stage after us was absolutely amazing, they did this rap/funk/rock, Old school chilli peppers meets Fishbone. They were called Belikos http://www.myspace.com/belikos - It was awesome. After they finished the owner of the bar locked the doors and we all hung out in the back room til almost 4 am, I had a good conversation with the other bands guitarist he was a pretty philosophical guy, we talked about how we are always learning..I won't get into it here. But it was cool. They were headed to another party at 4 am but at that point the people I was driving home were 90% passed out already.
I got home and couldn't sleep, I felt so restless, sometimes I try to trick myself into thinking
"yes I finally have a plan, things are going to go smoothly because I have these plans"
but it's not that way. I feel scattered and lost and all my goals seem dirty and faded and far away.
My body feels dry and irritable, I got the my hair kinda chopped yesterday, so that doesn't help,
but it wasn't done exactly the way I wanted to, because the hairdresser was too afraid to cut it...
so I'm going back in this week to follow through with the plan because this is just a in between mess.
God I feel like garbage today.
I'm going to get bundled up and force myself to run as much
as I don't feel like moving right now
Anyways, that's enough complaining on my part, I hope your day is going better.
Peace.
The show itself went ok, I think I played pretty horribly and I'm not going to make any excuses.
Something wasn't there last night, we've always had a weird stage presence,
we aren't a talk-to-the-crowd band.
We get up there and we unleash, there's no bells and whistles or anything,
but it's always felt good to me
The shows have been the only thing keeping me in the band,
I love the energy and I can't get that from any acoustic show...
but with the last few shows it seems to me like now even that is slipping away
two of the four of us always want to cut the set short, and they did so last night
and I said are you kidding me? We've been looking forward to the Electric Company gig because it is THE place to play in Utica, we had a ok turn out, people were enjoying it,
we had a good chunks of songs left on our list and plenty of time to play
but hey once they get it in their head that they want to stop, then that's all there really is to it.
I was able to milk 3 songs out of them, then as soon as we hit the last note they are gone without a goodbye.
They never stick around to show support for the other bands we share the gig with
and that's just not cool in my book, I understand if you don't want to stick around all night,
but at least stay for a couple of the next bands set since they just sat through ours.
So two of us left (leaving some of their equipment behind as usual) so I get a call this morning saying "oh i left this and this and this there, did you get it?" ... no I had no idea I was babysitting your gear.
"well can you go get? it you live closer" ... of course I can....
How many failures does it take to learn a lesson?
Well I'm still whipping boy so I guess a lot in my case.
The band that took the stage after us was absolutely amazing, they did this rap/funk/rock, Old school chilli peppers meets Fishbone. They were called Belikos http://www.myspace.com/belikos - It was awesome. After they finished the owner of the bar locked the doors and we all hung out in the back room til almost 4 am, I had a good conversation with the other bands guitarist he was a pretty philosophical guy, we talked about how we are always learning..I won't get into it here. But it was cool. They were headed to another party at 4 am but at that point the people I was driving home were 90% passed out already.
I got home and couldn't sleep, I felt so restless, sometimes I try to trick myself into thinking
"yes I finally have a plan, things are going to go smoothly because I have these plans"
but it's not that way. I feel scattered and lost and all my goals seem dirty and faded and far away.
My body feels dry and irritable, I got the my hair kinda chopped yesterday, so that doesn't help,
but it wasn't done exactly the way I wanted to, because the hairdresser was too afraid to cut it...
so I'm going back in this week to follow through with the plan because this is just a in between mess.
God I feel like garbage today.
I'm going to get bundled up and force myself to run as much
as I don't feel like moving right now
Anyways, that's enough complaining on my part, I hope your day is going better.
Peace.