Invisible-ish
People are so stupid. They only want to help me and be there for me when I'm really depressed and dont care anymore. On regular days it's just like I'm invisible and nobody cares; until they finally realize that I'm at a certain point. So basically they dont want me to cut or commit myself but then they completely ignore me. Whats the point of living if your'e just as invisble as a ghost. It's really starting to piss me off. And when people get mad at me for not talking when everyone else is talking. "Aww come on Christine pitch in on the conversation.." when they finally realize after and hour. Then when i decide to leave most of the time people dont even notice. The only thing keeping me going most of the time is Joey. No matter what the circumstance whenever I'm with him I'm really happy or not as depressed at school. I hate school so much. I know mostly every teen says that but I have my very good reasons. I'm only in grade 10 and i cant wait to be out of school. I don't even know if i'll go to post secondary or not. My reasons for hating school as much as i do ar e simple. I'm the one girl in school that people always start rumors about. Not the little ones that I wouldn't give a shit about really stupid ones that piss me off. To name a few, susposedly I take it up the ass regularily and use butter. Like what the fuck kind of a moron would do that? Most people in the school now refer to me as butter which is pretty retarded but thats what you get from a bunch of wigger and ditsy blonde preps. O ya and my supposid friends call me that behind my back. Another one, I'm susposedly 7 months pregnant yet this rumor started 7 months ago and I havent changed at all. And people still believe it! I dont know I'm just so confused at how people can me so retarded like that. I mean I feel invisible everyday but sometimes so fakely exposed.