"Love is nothing but a painful memory that lingers endlessly in the back of your mind."
I have not wrote in here in forever. I am doing ok I guess. I have been working a lot on the 28th it will be 5 months since I started PathMark I am a cashier there it is cool. And I like it but there is a lotof people there that fucking piss me off so much I mean there is no reason to hate me but they do and I hate people like that. But I do like some people and I like it. I make about $7.00 an hour. I am hoping to get another job to. Then me and my family are ok. I see my older sister more now I sleep over her house about 3 times a week and that is good cuz I like to see her and get away from my house. Me and my Mom are ok I guess we fight a lot but we always did. Then me and Jen are good. But I am worried about her I mean she dose not go to school and she just dose not seem to care about anything anymore. And I know she can be something great and I am not even going to sit here and say if she tried cuz she dose not have to. Things come to her so much better then me. I do not know anything she cannot do. I wish I was like her so much. But it pisses me off that I had to try to pass high school and she dose not have to and she is failing. I believe in her so much and I hope she knows I am always there for her. She really is my best friend and my sister. I wish there was more people she trusted and more people that were there for her. Cuz what if something happen to me she would be all alone and I do not want that for her. I want her to be happy and be something great. Beside that I made a lot of friend but then I am not friends with a lot of people anymore. But that is the for the best. I stopping gagging and cutting. So I am happy about that. I feel better. I am now 20 my b-day was a month ago. There is really not much to say. I am going to ask my sister to do a new layout for me so then I will write more cuz I will like it more. Ok that is it for now.
**Update on Kevin** On the 14th will be me and Kev's 2 months. We are both so In love with each other and we really hope to make it. I hope we are together forever and if not forever then a really long time. I love him so much and he means everything to me. I am more better with him and he is better with me. Everything that we did that was bad for us we both stop and I am more open with him. I mean we took a shower together and fall asleep naked. He said that he thinks I am sexy on the inside and outside I hope he means that. I love him so much. I think we will make it I mean I start fights and say we will not but I really feel that we will make it. I really do not think anyone else is as IN love as me and Kevin.
~*MeGgY*~
General...
::x:: Who do you admire most? - Comedians, i always felt that the funniest people have had the greatest pain
::x:: Do you believe in God? - Hell NO
::x:: If you could be any celebrity, who would you want to be? - I really do not know
::x:: Do you like reality tv shows? - they are ok
::x:: Are you a jealous person? - only with one person
::x:: What is your greatest fear? - never being loved
::x:: Where do you see yourself in 50 years? - dead
Would you rather...
::x:: Rollerblade or ride a bike - rollerblade
::x:: Kiss or be kissed - be kissed, it shows that the person wants to kiss you and cares
::x:: Be blind or deaf - i do not know
::x:: Slip or trip - trip
::x:: Be a cat or a dog - dog
Who is/was...
::x:: The first person you kissed - Matt
::x:: The first person to break your heart - Kevin (and only)
::x:: The person with the best looks - ricky
::x:: Your best friend -Kevin
::x:: The person you dislike the most - Matt
::x:: The person you trust the most - Kevin
::x:: The first person to be mean to you - Dad
::x:: The person with the best sense of humor - My little sister
What is your favorite...
::x:: Movie - American History X
::x:: Song - NIN "Hurt"
::x:: Book - Cut
::x:: Performer - In the Rain
::x:: TV show - Scobby Doo
::x:: Cartoon character - Scobby Doo
::x:: Pastime - listen to music
::x:: Color - black
::x:: Food - Pizza
::x:: Quality in the opposite sex - eyes
At what age do you plan to...
::x:: Get married - 20
::x:: Retire - I hope to die being I get odd
::x:: Earn your riches - 21
::x:: Fall in love - I did at 18
::x:: Have children - 20
**Update on Kevin** On the 14th will be me and Kev's 2 months. We are both so In love with each other and we really hope to make it. I hope we are together forever and if not forever then a really long time. I love him so much and he means everything to me. I am more better with him and he is better with me. Everything that we did that was bad for us we both stop and I am more open with him. I mean we took a shower together and fall asleep naked. He said that he thinks I am sexy on the inside and outside I hope he means that. I love him so much. I think we will make it I mean I start fights and say we will not but I really feel that we will make it. I really do not think anyone else is as IN love as me and Kevin.
~*MeGgY*~
General...
::x:: Who do you admire most? - Comedians, i always felt that the funniest people have had the greatest pain
::x:: Do you believe in God? - Hell NO
::x:: If you could be any celebrity, who would you want to be? - I really do not know
::x:: Do you like reality tv shows? - they are ok
::x:: Are you a jealous person? - only with one person
::x:: What is your greatest fear? - never being loved
::x:: Where do you see yourself in 50 years? - dead
Would you rather...
::x:: Rollerblade or ride a bike - rollerblade
::x:: Kiss or be kissed - be kissed, it shows that the person wants to kiss you and cares
::x:: Be blind or deaf - i do not know
::x:: Slip or trip - trip
::x:: Be a cat or a dog - dog
Who is/was...
::x:: The first person you kissed - Matt
::x:: The first person to break your heart - Kevin (and only)
::x:: The person with the best looks - ricky
::x:: Your best friend -Kevin
::x:: The person you dislike the most - Matt
::x:: The person you trust the most - Kevin
::x:: The first person to be mean to you - Dad
::x:: The person with the best sense of humor - My little sister
What is your favorite...
::x:: Movie - American History X
::x:: Song - NIN "Hurt"
::x:: Book - Cut
::x:: Performer - In the Rain
::x:: TV show - Scobby Doo
::x:: Cartoon character - Scobby Doo
::x:: Pastime - listen to music
::x:: Color - black
::x:: Food - Pizza
::x:: Quality in the opposite sex - eyes
At what age do you plan to...
::x:: Get married - 20
::x:: Retire - I hope to die being I get odd
::x:: Earn your riches - 21
::x:: Fall in love - I did at 18
::x:: Have children - 20