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"My fantasy is to just vanish, but no one would know where to find me. I would just leave it all behind."
...something like that. For a moment that sounded good...but then I thought about all of the people I love. Even if they may not love me in return, even if I just worry so much, or even if they talk about me behind my back. Fact of the matter is, I still love these people. I was so mean to some of you today, the usual people that I talk to, I didn't even say a word to. Or no more than a few. I also thought about how selfish saying, or even thinking about that quote above is.
I'm just tired...so tired. This week has had more downs than ups. Everywhere I go in school, sooner or later there's some girl or boy...or even adult saying, "I heard..." this or that, I'm so tired of trying to deal with everyone's gossip, when I don't even want to touch it. Once I walked through my front door, the first words to come out of my mouth were, "Oh, thank God, the weekend.." School sucks, and takes up too much time...