grunge

[xbitemehard66x]

i wont be soothed over....like milk....silk....a bedspread or a quilt.

so last night i got up and did it. the relief afterwards was amazing. it only lasted for a few seconds though, so i was then left to go back to my room, lay on my bed, and regret the previous moments. i dont know why i do things knowing theres gonna be a bad after effect. i regret it, but even more so the fact i cant be a pro. but it just isnt cute and jesus christ i canthave that.

no food diet. mother fucker.

chris is great. (understand it?)

im still kind of scared.

i dont understand any of the stuff thats been happening lately. why are things getting different, i thought they were good.

- you are so grandtastic
- im sorry you dont seem to be happy now
- im sorry i cant tell you things
- im sorry you are so blind to certain things but youre eyes are way to open for others
- im sorry i did that
- im sorry, but you cant help me

this is selfish, but i wish i could say it ALL. i havent figured out why yet.

two steps left and ill be pathetic again. there goes a couple friends.

<3