Sep 11, 2005 16:59
so i finally found my mom today after searching for an hour at 3 different houses. things get bad when your mom is laying in bed at 3 30 pm, in someone else's clothes, doesnt know where she's at, and hasn't eaten in two days. it also gets bad when after thursday shes completely homeless again, she cant come stay with you because being around her for more than an hour makes you want to die, and when you can blantly see marks from mistakes on her arms. ...i never want kids 1 ) i cant get fat 2 ) no one is cutting me up 3 ) i never want to be a mom like her.
the whole f.f.f. thing is ridiculous. it is nothing, i want that to be something, but because it is apparently something i cant have anything.
last weekend ended up being so dank, this one is complete bullshit.
i dont want to go school. i never want to be home again.