i never wanted you anyway
i think youre pathetic. its funny how im suppossed to dream to be like you and thats the one thing i fear. its funny how i try so hard to be the opposite and at the end of each day youre exactly who i am. i hate you for this.
i wish i could be one of those people who have no regrets. someone who can be content with everything theyve ever done. but i can never be that person,almost everyday i do something i regret...which i guess makes me a bad person for not learning to be careful or for not learning to keep quiet.
to my biggest regret, im so sorry for absolutely everything. im even sorrier for now. id give anything to erase all the bad. im sorry.
Regrets
-that night ( if you dont know what im talking about , forget it)
- labor day weekend, eigth grade, mark
-tres party
-my party
-the "guitar" lesson
- everything i did upsetting or hurting to "him"
- every mean thing ive ever said to my grandma
- eigth grade, movies, r.m.
- peters party
-dog wood festival
- tonight
...there are more but now is just to hard to think
i didnt mean to. and because i did im sorry. i know im horrible
...i guess she's right. she's always been right. the truth makes me want to die.
id give anything to be anyone of them. any one.
i hate the summer. so so so so much.