fuck candy hearts
I hope cupid hits you with his arrow of love.....right in your forehead....and it isnt love its acid. * not directed towards anyone so lets not jump the gun and judge*
so i havent been on lj in awhile because i have no computer but it wouldnt matter if i did because almost everyone on my lj friends list has too good of priorities to read my horrible lj.
so lets see this weekend was pretty good. the past couple of weeks havent been good but this weekend sure was. Met alot of new peoplewho were probably some of the coolest people Ive ever met (patrick, willie, adrienne, and steve. OH and andrew) got to know some people better, in both positive and negative ways, but all in all it was pretty swell.
So I hate to deliver all of this horrible news to you wonderful, caring, non judgemental, open minded, fun, loving, people but I am a horrible person. I know Ive stated it before but this weekend totally opened a new window and really let me see how bad of a person i am. I need to learn what my priorities are, whats smart to do and what isnt smart to do, who i want as friends, who is going to stick by me, who doesnt just hang out with me because my house is empty, who really cares about me, and etc. Im sorry I let all of you down and all I want now is to be cool with you again. Im going to stop everything thats different about me so I can be like you guys because you are all honestly terrific people. I dont know why I was so blinded and tried to become friends with "other" people. You know the horrible ones? I so glad you guys took the time to get to know me and im sorry for not doing the same. Im also sorry for disrespcting you, you guys never did anything to deserve it. Forgive me, I want nothing more than your approval. I really am sorry in the most NON-sincere way.
I didnt throw away our friendship. You started ending it a long time ago. I kept trying to do things to bring us closer and i guess you either didnt catch on or didnt care.I even tried this time around to maybe save a little but I didnt get my two cents.And you didnt make a later attempt to get em. So Im assuming your last post wasnt venting....well of course it wasnt you only vent about your good friends you just bitch out the ones you can deal without,and from that non-ventage Im gonna say I guess its over. Because well now im supposed to fuck myself, learn their better friends and mold myself into them to hopeful one day get you back, oh and im bitchy. Sorry im such a horrible friend. Im even sorrier you used ot be a great one, a sincere one, one who actually cared, and now youre just one. Oh and about my ride to school, I wouldnt want to force you to drive a bad person to school to I'll pay you your gas money so you can drive to south view and I'll find another way. Thanks for all the rides though.
I just hope you dont forgive me as quickly as you forgave them, because well that would mess up your world of perfect friends.
***ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS PEOPLE ASKED ME BEFORE I LEFT LJ***
Maggie:
I dont enjoy butt sex, the miss yous and anything else like that are about "him" i know im pathetic, i dont know which class i like better..probably civics because "he" was in it....i know pathetic, and yes i remeber you from cotillion (sp?)
Lisa:
Still dont enjoy butt sex , i dont hate you i love you, i defintely want to dress up and go the mall, and yea im pure sex.
Jimbo:
WHy dont you take a whiff? you can answer the next one yourself, we do talk now :), ok
Taylor:
all yes.
Valentines day sucked. NO flowers, no secret confessions, candy hearts are for whimps.
Thanks for throwing my ring on the ground to. it wasnt yours. and if you want people to think i hate you let me tell them i hate you. girl.
so i havent been on lj in awhile because i have no computer but it wouldnt matter if i did because almost everyone on my lj friends list has too good of priorities to read my horrible lj.
so lets see this weekend was pretty good. the past couple of weeks havent been good but this weekend sure was. Met alot of new peoplewho were probably some of the coolest people Ive ever met (patrick, willie, adrienne, and steve. OH and andrew) got to know some people better, in both positive and negative ways, but all in all it was pretty swell.
So I hate to deliver all of this horrible news to you wonderful, caring, non judgemental, open minded, fun, loving, people but I am a horrible person. I know Ive stated it before but this weekend totally opened a new window and really let me see how bad of a person i am. I need to learn what my priorities are, whats smart to do and what isnt smart to do, who i want as friends, who is going to stick by me, who doesnt just hang out with me because my house is empty, who really cares about me, and etc. Im sorry I let all of you down and all I want now is to be cool with you again. Im going to stop everything thats different about me so I can be like you guys because you are all honestly terrific people. I dont know why I was so blinded and tried to become friends with "other" people. You know the horrible ones? I so glad you guys took the time to get to know me and im sorry for not doing the same. Im also sorry for disrespcting you, you guys never did anything to deserve it. Forgive me, I want nothing more than your approval. I really am sorry in the most NON-sincere way.
I didnt throw away our friendship. You started ending it a long time ago. I kept trying to do things to bring us closer and i guess you either didnt catch on or didnt care.I even tried this time around to maybe save a little but I didnt get my two cents.And you didnt make a later attempt to get em. So Im assuming your last post wasnt venting....well of course it wasnt you only vent about your good friends you just bitch out the ones you can deal without,and from that non-ventage Im gonna say I guess its over. Because well now im supposed to fuck myself, learn their better friends and mold myself into them to hopeful one day get you back, oh and im bitchy. Sorry im such a horrible friend. Im even sorrier you used ot be a great one, a sincere one, one who actually cared, and now youre just one. Oh and about my ride to school, I wouldnt want to force you to drive a bad person to school to I'll pay you your gas money so you can drive to south view and I'll find another way. Thanks for all the rides though.
I just hope you dont forgive me as quickly as you forgave them, because well that would mess up your world of perfect friends.
***ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS PEOPLE ASKED ME BEFORE I LEFT LJ***
Maggie:
I dont enjoy butt sex, the miss yous and anything else like that are about "him" i know im pathetic, i dont know which class i like better..probably civics because "he" was in it....i know pathetic, and yes i remeber you from cotillion (sp?)
Lisa:
Still dont enjoy butt sex , i dont hate you i love you, i defintely want to dress up and go the mall, and yea im pure sex.
Jimbo:
WHy dont you take a whiff? you can answer the next one yourself, we do talk now :), ok
Taylor:
all yes.
Valentines day sucked. NO flowers, no secret confessions, candy hearts are for whimps.
Thanks for throwing my ring on the ground to. it wasnt yours. and if you want people to think i hate you let me tell them i hate you. girl.