Gah..
I'm in this odd mood where I'm afraid to speak with anyone because I feel bothersome. Like if you even think of speaking to someone, they'll cut you down before you can finish the sentence because your very existence bothers them. Im afraid, that I care too much. Im afraid that im getting myself into a mess again. I feel bad, I want to talk to them, but I cant I just cant. I feel pushed down onto the floor, and I have noone to help me get back up.