Nov 30, 2006 09:39
Well...I'm single...yup thats right!!! She dumped me. She did it yesterday during 6th period. To tell you the truth...I saw it coming. Like in my entry...I dont know if I stated but that girl...she was cool n' everything but she wasnt something I was looking for...not even close to it. I can't have the type of girlfriend that's going to be whatever about our relationship. That just doesnt fly with me. So her excuse? "Your all lovey dovey...and I'm not...I dont think its going to work out..." me... i just shrugged, turned around and walked away. Hey... she doesnt like "lovey dovey"... so0o why I should any kind of care when she dumped me right outside her friends 6th period? I bond with her friend MORE then I bond with her. FUCK IT. Next gurl! lol. Yeah!
So its 8:25 in the morning and I'm in 1st period. I have my cup of hot chocolate in front of me, hobo gloves a beanie 4 layers and a scarf...am I warm? FUCK YEAH. Oh and I forgot to mention the two pairs of socks. It's alot to take off but its well worth staying warm, so whatever.
Stephanie isnt here today so I have to stay at my desk quiet and lonely without my music to keep me company... I keep forgetting my stupid IPOD o_0
So me being single...is going to be weird for me since the longest I've stayed single was about 7 months and even THEN I was "dating" someone so technically my longest "single" time for me was 3 months lol. During that time I was crying my heart out (stupidly I might add) for my ex that broke up with me. haha. Sometimes I still look back and think WTF WAS THAT! lol. Oh well. Like how Freddie puts it "pero fuck it"
The teacher keeps passing by and I have to watch out because we're not supposed to be on the internet. But honestly who listens to the teachers nowadays. Even the valedictorian had to have a sense of rebellion o_0 *imagines*
So yes back to me being single. I'm not used to it. Especially NOW since I dont date guys anymore and back then I had to use 2 hands to count how many guys wanted to be with me and I liked. LoL. Now that I date girls...you would think it'll be easier...really...its NOT. Ugh >_< I should just turn A-sexual...nahhhh fuck that. I admit I like having someone. I Hate loneliness as much as the next girl who can blame me? Teenage years are lonely sometimes. You gotta have someone along your side at some point in your years. But this "single" life but how I like to refer it to *Julie Time* is going to be good for me considering the fact that I just went through 2 girls like I change my underwear... and I brutally got turned down by the one girl I realllly want...and well my ex...fuck her. So during this time I'm going to reflect, have fun, and if it happens it happens. Whatever. I don't go looking for them, they come to me. Cause when I look I think I find and I turn out to be wrong. And yeah I'm tired of disappointment. Bam tells me to just "play the game" and have fun with the girls but I have more respect fr them though sometimes it sounds really tempting and I wish I had that discipline. I probably do but with MY luck I'll get stuck on ONE girl and the others will be like WTF and I have too much of a heart for that... (unfortunately)...
So anita and nessa tell me I should really hook up with Liz. The best friend of Jessica I might add. Ha. The girl is cool, shes cute I guess...but sadly I'm a bit shallow I DO like the girls to be at least halfway pretty lol. Hey I know what I like, dont judge me :)
But yeah they're telling me I should hook up with her and it seems as if she likes me and I should really go for it BUT I dont know. We'll see. I'm not going to try for anything. I'm tired of pursuing. I want to be chased again for once. lol. It was always fun and I liked pushing them to see how far they'll go to "be with a girl like me". God I wish I was that dream girl the one that everyone wanted because I was such a mystery and amazing that I caught everyones attention and I was the one of the "most wanted". GOD that shit was FUN. WOOT!
Well teachers back. better go.
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