Vacation's All I Ever Wanted
so i'm on on vacay right now. my parentals are in barbados until Jun. 3 (7days in one hr)..and i'm @ home watchin the kids. i feel so overwhelmed right now. like i just want to go to bed and stay there. i've been out all day. finally got home an hour ago almost. i need to wash the dishes cuz they haven't been washed in 2 days almost. i need to find something to wear tomorrow to nadirah's graduation party. i need to finish uploading songs to my mp3 player.
see what i mean? i'm not even all excited about my damn mp3 player. :(
i need to bathe my hair. and so much more. but i don't wanna do anything right now. except sleep. and maybe call sola. :( but i can't do that. cuz i called him 3x's yesterday and left two threatening messages. cuz i hate when he doesn't answer or return my phone calls. it makes me worry. i hate that. so he calls this morning and i let it go to voicemail. then he called this afternoon. and i let it go to voicemail. and i know he's maybe pissed. cuz i told him i was coming over tonight. but i'm giving him a taste of his own damn medicine. maybe next time he'll learn that i mean bizness. and that not answering my calls when i know you're getting them.. and then waiting a day b4 u call back is not the way to go.. i mean if he had called me back after the 3rd fucken time i called then i woulda only cussed him out. but nooo. he waits until the day we're supposed to chill..after i've already left my house and didn't bring spare clothes, panties, toiletries, and my charger. so what should i do? go out on a limb and show up on the fucken doorstep? i don't think so. ugh. this has turned into a really long rant. i don't know how this will play out but i'm definitely about to flip the script on his ass.
cuz it's really all about me.. in case he didn't know.
and right now i feel like i'm bending and twisting to accomodate him. calling 3x's in one day? i've clearly lost my damn mind. i should not be chasing him dammit! he should be chasing me. and i keep reminding myself that. and i keep going back on my word. enough.
i can't wait until tuesday when my direct deposit comes thru. so i can have some dough. and hit up target!! my sister akela is supposed to be coming in town also. and staying here from saturday night till tuesday. and bringing her hubby and the kids. i hope she comes. cuz i could use the company. i feel so damn lonely right now.
see what i mean? i'm not even all excited about my damn mp3 player. :(
i need to bathe my hair. and so much more. but i don't wanna do anything right now. except sleep. and maybe call sola. :( but i can't do that. cuz i called him 3x's yesterday and left two threatening messages. cuz i hate when he doesn't answer or return my phone calls. it makes me worry. i hate that. so he calls this morning and i let it go to voicemail. then he called this afternoon. and i let it go to voicemail. and i know he's maybe pissed. cuz i told him i was coming over tonight. but i'm giving him a taste of his own damn medicine. maybe next time he'll learn that i mean bizness. and that not answering my calls when i know you're getting them.. and then waiting a day b4 u call back is not the way to go.. i mean if he had called me back after the 3rd fucken time i called then i woulda only cussed him out. but nooo. he waits until the day we're supposed to chill..after i've already left my house and didn't bring spare clothes, panties, toiletries, and my charger. so what should i do? go out on a limb and show up on the fucken doorstep? i don't think so. ugh. this has turned into a really long rant. i don't know how this will play out but i'm definitely about to flip the script on his ass.
cuz it's really all about me.. in case he didn't know.
and right now i feel like i'm bending and twisting to accomodate him. calling 3x's in one day? i've clearly lost my damn mind. i should not be chasing him dammit! he should be chasing me. and i keep reminding myself that. and i keep going back on my word. enough.
i can't wait until tuesday when my direct deposit comes thru. so i can have some dough. and hit up target!! my sister akela is supposed to be coming in town also. and staying here from saturday night till tuesday. and bringing her hubby and the kids. i hope she comes. cuz i could use the company. i feel so damn lonely right now.