everyone is a disaapointment
i feel as if my last journal entry was a little too harsh. it just seems like with every passing day things just get worse and worse and worse and that there are no signs pointing ting to anything getting better. last night i found out that for year i've not trusted someone who i should have been trusted the entire time and was being lied to by someone who i thought would never lie to me. it was a huge disappointment and i hope that other person can let me admitt my mistake and forgive as for the other person i know your situation you were put in but it's still all bullshit. that set me off upon a bunch of other things. i feel like i've lost my best friend to a girl a fucking girl. this is not the first time it's happened to me before and it's just bullshit because this kid was a huge part of my life. i saw him everyday now he can't answer my calls or call me. i'm disgusted by you and what you've chosen over friendship. have fun watching her drink by herself in her basement like the waste you both are hey maybe you'll break edge for your girlfriend just like ian did. ok so that's two things down what's next. oh yeah my other friends slowly i feel like everyones going to shit. it's hard for me to really know who i can trust and count on now a days. so many people aren't what they once were whether it be them breaking edge, losing touch due some dumb broad or just being a scum bag it's like what's happening to peoples respect for themselves. ok what else, each day i'm becomming more and more content with the fact that i might never be happy again it's been 9 months since i've had a girlfriend and 6 months since i've been truely happy it's not because i'm single that i'm unhappy it's a mix of that plus everything else and there are no signs pointing to it getting any better. people always say "hey it could be worse right?' yes they are absolutely right because each time i think things can't get any worse they do so when people say that they are 100% right. oh yeah and i'm making no money at work tips are shitty and it's very slow plus i get surgery the 23rd and can't back on my bike until my elbow and finger fully heal which is 3 months the doctor said fuck him i'll make it 2. i lost track of my rant so i guess i'll just end. just so everyone knows though i really still don't trust anyone and have maybe a handful of kids i can truely call my friends.