w.t.f.t.d.
so what do you do when you're a selfish asshole and cannot be forgiven because you're so worthless? i really think death is a good option. but i can't. i can't even be alone for 5 minutes anymore because someone either has to call me or talk to me.
i really don't think there's a problem with wanting to be silent or having nothing to say. when what you say isn't believed what are you left to do?
basically, my life is bullshit. i'm afraid and confused beyond fucking belief. i have no idea what i'll be doing tomorrow, the day after, next week. in one year. leaving is not the right decision as i've discovered, but when there's no way for anyone to get ahold of you it just seems so right. i'm such a nuisance.
marc was right when he discussed the fact that we hurt ourselves. we are our own worst enemies. when ignorance would be bliss and making decisions with high hopes is all that there is, what the fuck is there to do? feeling like nothing you do pleases anyone, or rights any wrongs, or makes anyone happy; there is no hope. i'll get what i deserve and i can only hope for the best...even though i'm sure i've lost.
i really don't think there's a problem with wanting to be silent or having nothing to say. when what you say isn't believed what are you left to do?
basically, my life is bullshit. i'm afraid and confused beyond fucking belief. i have no idea what i'll be doing tomorrow, the day after, next week. in one year. leaving is not the right decision as i've discovered, but when there's no way for anyone to get ahold of you it just seems so right. i'm such a nuisance.
marc was right when he discussed the fact that we hurt ourselves. we are our own worst enemies. when ignorance would be bliss and making decisions with high hopes is all that there is, what the fuck is there to do? feeling like nothing you do pleases anyone, or rights any wrongs, or makes anyone happy; there is no hope. i'll get what i deserve and i can only hope for the best...even though i'm sure i've lost.