i wonder sometimes...

[xbeyond_dreamsx]

do you laugh at me behind my back?
are you nice to me because you think you'll feel better?
do you really care?

i'm always wondering if people actually like me being drum major.
or that i don't deserve it.
i worked my ass off.
and then i was talked about because someone else thought they should have gotten it.
i like having fun.
i like being funny.
but i don't like being made fun of.
or people saying i don't deserve it.
because i do.
endofstory.
so how about saying "Eddie and Courtney are going to be drum majors next year"
instead of just Eddie...
like i have no chance...
kthanksbye.