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Jul 26, 2004 12:16


I had a really bad dream last night. It was really weird and all mixed up though.Jon called me to say that Jordan was in very big trouble because he caught her tweaking again.I remeber how i felt too when he told me that...like i was going to cry. I could feel the lump in my throat building up. weird.

I think i have the most fun with people when we can just sit around and talk.Not when were fucked up or drunk or whatever.I feel like im the only one who's like this though. Im just sick of always having to "do" something. But who knows....maybe somebody gets what im trying to say?

And where is everyone??It seriously feels like im stranded.I haaaaaate not having a car.I feel so ...so bummy.   Jordan's birthday is comming up. I feel like planning something big. Anyone wanna help ? :)I can't believe she's gonna be 18...and then Jessica and Rhi...and me....im scared :(  I just want to stay 17. I don't want to get older.Im so atached to this....to my parents and my friends...i couldn't even begin to imagine having to move out and go to college and getting married and kids and ...damn.

I miss people. People that i probably shouldn't miss.I guess maybe im too forgiving.Either way, im alright.It's just odd having someone in your life and basically having to kick them out. But i guess everything was meant to turn out exactly the way it has.

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