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LAST WEEK I HAD THE STRANGEST DREAM. WHERE EVERYTHING WAS EXACTLY HOW IT SEEMED.
im so sick of feeling bad. its always my fault in every situation with every person i have encountered in my life. so i figure, maybe it is me. it has to be. maybe i should change. its hard to, when fucking 98% of everyone i have encountered has fucked me over to the point that i cant see whats the truth & whats not. you have fucking ruined me. i hope youre all happy. well, this is my fucking life. this is how it goes. there is no change. ill accept it. i guess believing in something good & getting hurt is better than not believing it at all & hurting more people in the process. so what the hell. im used to it.
im so sick of feeling bad. its always my fault in every situation with every person i have encountered in my life. so i figure, maybe it is me. it has to be. maybe i should change. its hard to, when fucking 98% of everyone i have encountered has fucked me over to the point that i cant see whats the truth & whats not. you have fucking ruined me. i hope youre all happy. well, this is my fucking life. this is how it goes. there is no change. ill accept it. i guess believing in something good & getting hurt is better than not believing it at all & hurting more people in the process. so what the hell. im used to it.