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ok .. well Josh is home and its fine .. starting to feel normal but I still have this fear of being home alone with him and I feel really bad about it .. it's like I keep thinking he's just pretending to be better and any second he'll just go crazy again..I dont know its complicating.
I went to Zachs last night .. it was ok .. Marc wasn't there of course .. everyone keeps telling me I should break up with him and I know I probably should .. but for some reason I don't want to .. maybe I just want a boyfriend but I doubt thats it .. hes not much of one.
I feel like I'm insane cause my head is spinning in like 700 different directions and I can't concentrate on shit and I'm always nervous or not really nervous .. I don't know what .. but something crazy.
I went to Zachs last night .. it was ok .. Marc wasn't there of course .. everyone keeps telling me I should break up with him and I know I probably should .. but for some reason I don't want to .. maybe I just want a boyfriend but I doubt thats it .. hes not much of one.
I feel like I'm insane cause my head is spinning in like 700 different directions and I can't concentrate on shit and I'm always nervous or not really nervous .. I don't know what .. but something crazy.