baby is this love for real?
alright so I think I'm just done with him (him being Chris) yea i know what your all thinking, yea right Sam, you've said this a thousand times and although yes i have im serious this time. I'm honestly just gonna stop it all. He can't continue thinking that I'm not going anywhere. I mean does he not consider the fact that maybe I want to leave? That I don't wanna feel like this for any longer? So this is it, this is my goodbye. I'm done. I'm done wasting my nights crying and wishing he would come back. I'm done looking at old pictures and thinking wow look how happy I was or look how happy he was; look how happy we were together. No more calling him, he can call me. I figure that if he's gonna fix this and live up to what he's promised me, that it'll happen, when? I have no idea but if he is bullshitting me then fine, I'm not gonna let it bother me anymore.
... now I just need to live up to all of that.
... now I just need to live up to all of that.