Oh my confused..

[xberx]

I started my period today, which automatically means I feel like shyt, because I always do for the whole time i'm on it! And i'm the bitchest person you'd ever meet. Woah what a weekend this is gonna be. I'm in such a pissy mood. I'm sick of everything. Everything pisses me off..well besides **Katie**<--BF4L! And a few other things that at this moment I can't think of..because of the simple fact i'm being to concentrated on being pissed off. Julian came over for a little bit..I got home from Thanksgiving and he was already here! (He was chillin w/Katie, because I basically live w/her not even joking i'm here every single night basically which is the only thing saving my sanity) and he was here for about an hour and a half two hours. He's fun to hang out with. Well anyways I brought home 7 brownies and a 2 Liter of Mountain Dew and nothing else. Because Thanksgiving sucked. Yah, so as you can tell I haven't had a good day. I miss Mike alot. Today while everyone was giving thanks for what they had..He sat in a cell, or in a room, by himself, or w/stupid ass juvenille little boys! Wow, what a Thanksgiving my baby had! And that just puts me in such a great mood. I want to see him. My head is going to explode. There's to much goin on for me to handle. And i'm so emotional I let everything go to my head. And try to handle everything. Why am I so stupid? Really, why?

I NEED TO SEE MIKE
I MISS HIS *SmILe*
I MISS HIS *LaUgH*
I MISS HIS *EyEs*
I MISS HIS *ToUcH*
I MISS HIS *LoVe*

I MISS *EvErYtHiNg* :(

I can see your sad, Even when you smile, Even when you laugh!
I can see it in your eyes, Deep inside you wanna cry!
Cuz your scared, I ain't there!

Underneath the smile..There's a pain that's dying to show! And tears waiting to fall! Why won't anyone notice. I just wanna be helped. Am I really that good of a faker. How can you not see this. Somethings wrong and I can't help myself anymore.

- Me..**