I hate this silence, its getting so loud.
yeaaa.. It's been awhile since I've written a longer entry.. so here we go..
Things on my mind at 5:43 in the morning. (smile)
"so love me so i can be myself again, now hate me, so things seem normal in my head"
I dont know.. I guess I miss him? not like that, but, as a friend. We've been through so much, what.. 5 years of my life? and he always said I'll always be here, I'm not going anywhere, I'm not gunna just disappear I hope you choke on those words, because apparently they were lies. I keep thinking I should call you.. and then stopping. because I know if you wanted to talk, you could call me. But now your busy with the people who didnt give a shit about you until they realized you might make it big and forgetting the people who cared about you from the start.
I know it always meant more to me then it did to you.
but tell me it meant something.
and that maybe, just maybe, you miss me too?
Thankgoodness for matt.. the only thing thats keeping me sane.<3
Letting go is my life
I'll be on my way.
<3
Things on my mind at 5:43 in the morning. (smile)
"so love me so i can be myself again, now hate me, so things seem normal in my head"
I dont know.. I guess I miss him? not like that, but, as a friend. We've been through so much, what.. 5 years of my life? and he always said I'll always be here, I'm not going anywhere, I'm not gunna just disappear I hope you choke on those words, because apparently they were lies. I keep thinking I should call you.. and then stopping. because I know if you wanted to talk, you could call me. But now your busy with the people who didnt give a shit about you until they realized you might make it big and forgetting the people who cared about you from the start.
I know it always meant more to me then it did to you.
but tell me it meant something.
and that maybe, just maybe, you miss me too?
Thankgoodness for matt.. the only thing thats keeping me sane.<3
Letting go is my life
I'll be on my way.
<3