college..high expectations?

[xbeautifulsoulx]

what is wrong with me and why cant i enjoy being away from what made me hate being at home. my emotions are uncontrollable-im like a fucking bipolar, pregnant woman with my emotions going up and down unpredictably. i miss a lot of things i had at home.. not necessarily all of the people..but the close relationships that i had with the few people i cared about most. the people here that i have met are way different.. and i guess i just havent found my niche. my roommate, although very nice and easy to get along with, is probably a cancer to my well-being here. All she ever wants to do is go home on the weekends or just hang out around the room.( antisocial) so who would have thought that SDSU would be like this for me. I think part of the problem is that I have someone at home i am not able to let go of and the more i cant see this person the more i begin to despise being here.

and what i dislike most about this place is there is nobody here to be weird and crazy with.. wtf...where are my sivs, jens, laurels, and allegras? :(

PS..FYI...frat guys are SO gay here..more gay than anywhere else