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I CANT SLEEP. EVER. seriously this is one of the most frustrating things that has ever happened to me...the past 6 months i have had the absolute worst sleeping difficulties and it really does affect me. im constantly tired, cranky, and i never want to do anything. its even worse before my tournaments for some reason. on average i get about 3 hours of sleep before games...which could account for randomly missed ground balls and strike outs. i really dont know whats causing this...but i would do anythinggggg to be able to sleep a full 8 hours without waking up. i tried sleeping pills last night and basically i was tripping out and i started yelling really loudly...i felt extremely drunk in a weird way. my head was floating in space and my body was shaking..it was quite... disturbing. ive tried talking to my mom about it and asked her if she would pleeeease take me to the doctors but she said "no you're going to have to figure this problem out yourself im not letting some doctor put u on drugs" WTF. i have been trying to figure it out for 6 months and its onyl getting worse. i know its psychological...so maybe im just crazy...:(