xSomething.Dies.When.You.Grow.Olderx
Sometimes I wonder if you still read this. And if you know it's you I talk about when I talk about you. I wonder how you take everything. Dissect it inside your head. Tear it all apart. Baby, each criptic message is everything I could never say to your face.send over satilite frequencies. I wish I could change your involvement in my life. I was wrong.
Chances are, though, if I had in my life, I would just want something different. That's me. Never content with what I have. Always want what can't be. But you know that just as much as anyone.
I have been restless as all ever. So bored. Can't wait to go home this weekend. Code show! I'm totally excited, even though it is their last show. For some reason, I just don't see them as going away. Maybe, it's because they have been such a staple in my life. I don't know. I'm gonna miss them. A lot. Their music makes me feel like home. I can't wait to see all my Girard kids! Matt is deffinitally gonna be there. I know that. I hope a bunch of others are there as well. And my NorthEast kids! I'm pretty sure Pat is gonna be there because last I knew he was doing merch for Dirt McGurt and they are playing. I miss that kid so fucking much. Ben will probably be there as well with Heather. It makes me sad that me and him aren't as close as we used to be. But I guess that happens. All a part of growing up. I think Jen is actually coming with me, too! Which will be great. I miss her. And it was wierd when I went to see Black Rose Diary without her last May. I saw so many kids who were so used to seeing us side by side at all times and every one of them was like "So, what happened? Why aren't you and Jen friends anymore?" And that sucked.
So much fucking homework. I'm pretty sure my Spanish prof. is ruining the Spanish language for me. I love Spanish. I love speaking it. I speak it well. I'm probably better at it when it comes to grammar and spelling than English. But I dread going to that class 4 days a week. It's the slowest hour. Ever.
I'm eating raspberry pez right now. I didn't know they made raspberry pez. It's super good. I think it's my favorite of the pez flavors. I'm eating it out of a hella cute Hello Kitty dispenser.
I have been sick since Sunday. My head is all stuffy and my throat hurts. I've been living off of freezie pops. I have a bunch of grape ones. Yuck. Hopefully Ashley likes grape. I don't. It's uckie. Like woah.
Oh! Oh! How about I deffinitally acquired the new Brand New CD, Fight Your Demons, today. Go me! It's pretty great. Not gonna lie, I was scared to listen to it. I mean, there was such a drastic change between Your Favorite Weapon and Deja Entendu and I didn't know if my little heart could handle another drastic change. This CD is like Deja Entendu taken to the next level. Jesse plays acoustic guitar more which makes me smile. I love that. The lyrics are less cynical. And they seem a little more real than fictional story. And there are solos and breakdowns. Oh, it's great. I listened to it all day.
I'm pretty much in love with the song "Send My Love To The Dance Floor" by Cobra Starship. I don't know how I feel about this band as a whole though. But this song is good.
Well I wrote your name and burned it,
See the colour of the flame.
And it burned out the whole spectrum,
As if you were everything.
Mine just burned gold,
A normal flame.
I am not anything.
x.Brand.New.x
Chances are, though, if I had in my life, I would just want something different. That's me. Never content with what I have. Always want what can't be. But you know that just as much as anyone.
I have been restless as all ever. So bored. Can't wait to go home this weekend. Code show! I'm totally excited, even though it is their last show. For some reason, I just don't see them as going away. Maybe, it's because they have been such a staple in my life. I don't know. I'm gonna miss them. A lot. Their music makes me feel like home. I can't wait to see all my Girard kids! Matt is deffinitally gonna be there. I know that. I hope a bunch of others are there as well. And my NorthEast kids! I'm pretty sure Pat is gonna be there because last I knew he was doing merch for Dirt McGurt and they are playing. I miss that kid so fucking much. Ben will probably be there as well with Heather. It makes me sad that me and him aren't as close as we used to be. But I guess that happens. All a part of growing up. I think Jen is actually coming with me, too! Which will be great. I miss her. And it was wierd when I went to see Black Rose Diary without her last May. I saw so many kids who were so used to seeing us side by side at all times and every one of them was like "So, what happened? Why aren't you and Jen friends anymore?" And that sucked.
So much fucking homework. I'm pretty sure my Spanish prof. is ruining the Spanish language for me. I love Spanish. I love speaking it. I speak it well. I'm probably better at it when it comes to grammar and spelling than English. But I dread going to that class 4 days a week. It's the slowest hour. Ever.
I'm eating raspberry pez right now. I didn't know they made raspberry pez. It's super good. I think it's my favorite of the pez flavors. I'm eating it out of a hella cute Hello Kitty dispenser.
I have been sick since Sunday. My head is all stuffy and my throat hurts. I've been living off of freezie pops. I have a bunch of grape ones. Yuck. Hopefully Ashley likes grape. I don't. It's uckie. Like woah.
Oh! Oh! How about I deffinitally acquired the new Brand New CD, Fight Your Demons, today. Go me! It's pretty great. Not gonna lie, I was scared to listen to it. I mean, there was such a drastic change between Your Favorite Weapon and Deja Entendu and I didn't know if my little heart could handle another drastic change. This CD is like Deja Entendu taken to the next level. Jesse plays acoustic guitar more which makes me smile. I love that. The lyrics are less cynical. And they seem a little more real than fictional story. And there are solos and breakdowns. Oh, it's great. I listened to it all day.
I'm pretty much in love with the song "Send My Love To The Dance Floor" by Cobra Starship. I don't know how I feel about this band as a whole though. But this song is good.
Well I wrote your name and burned it,
See the colour of the flame.
And it burned out the whole spectrum,
As if you were everything.
Mine just burned gold,
A normal flame.
I am not anything.
x.Brand.New.x