a rant...
JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!!!!
I apologize to any of my friends who find that sacreligious or what not. But for FUCKS sake. I just wanna be happy, and I was -- I was perfectly content and then of course someone has to come along and try to spoil all that. Is it because I'm doing malicious harm to them? NO. Is it because they think it's not right for me? NO. All cause of someone wanting the spotlight and feeling like their favorite toy just got lost. I have to have my own life too dammit, but everytime I try for that I'm shut down. "I want you to be happy. I'm happy for you." To quote Penn & Teller BULLSHIT! You're happy as a lark when I'm miserable and would love for me to give up everything that makes me happy just cause you wanna throw a damn temper tantrum. You've actually gone out of your way before to CAUSE me to be unhappy.
I have no idea why this shit happens to me. I've been a good person, I am a good person -- no not a Gandhi or a Mother Teresa -- but a good freaking person who tries to do the right thing and all I do is keep getting shat upon every single fucking time. I'm so tired of people hating on another persons happiness and having to explain myself. I don't need any explanation for going after what I want...doesn't everyone do that? UGH.
I apologize to any of my friends who find that sacreligious or what not. But for FUCKS sake. I just wanna be happy, and I was -- I was perfectly content and then of course someone has to come along and try to spoil all that. Is it because I'm doing malicious harm to them? NO. Is it because they think it's not right for me? NO. All cause of someone wanting the spotlight and feeling like their favorite toy just got lost. I have to have my own life too dammit, but everytime I try for that I'm shut down. "I want you to be happy. I'm happy for you." To quote Penn & Teller BULLSHIT! You're happy as a lark when I'm miserable and would love for me to give up everything that makes me happy just cause you wanna throw a damn temper tantrum. You've actually gone out of your way before to CAUSE me to be unhappy.
I have no idea why this shit happens to me. I've been a good person, I am a good person -- no not a Gandhi or a Mother Teresa -- but a good freaking person who tries to do the right thing and all I do is keep getting shat upon every single fucking time. I'm so tired of people hating on another persons happiness and having to explain myself. I don't need any explanation for going after what I want...doesn't everyone do that? UGH.