Our world is an ever changing one. There is no set standard, no doctrine by which to live, we write it for ourselves as we journey forward. We will of course one day all return to the nothing from whence we originated, until then however we must make use of this world around us, as ever changing as it is. We can't expect things to always go as we planned on them going, there'd really be no fun at all in that. I know for a fact, living a life through manipulation drains a lot of the luster that it features. If trying to fix these things in your life has become the catalyst for things going downward, perhaps they're not meant to be changed--but that's for you to decide. Maggie, you've always been searching for yourself. However, you've never really had the individuality as you do now to actually begin self-searching, it's just becoming ever so much more apparent to you that there's something that makes you tick. It's scary, I don't think it wouldn't be for anyone, everyone is a little appaled at who and what they are, everyone looks at themself through a rather decrepit viewing glass, it's hard to take pride in what you as a person truly are. But in doing so you gain strength, character and the ability to actually walk forward. Of course I say all this, and have yet to actually let go of my control and walk without someone holding MY hand and guiding me. We've known each other for a long time, we know about what makes each other tick and walk, and I'm always just as old as you are, as erudite as I might be sometimes that doesn't keep me from feeling like everything I've always known is a prefabricated house that's falling down in on me. Maggie, life is about this right now, life is about moving, you're not a bad person, and although you may have made mistakes, mistakes are almost always forgiven. The person who needs to learn how to forgive is yourself. As to fixing, your job is not to always mend, although you can, do not let it destroy you in the process. Please Maggie, I'd hold your hand and walk you through it one step of the way, if you could then learn to navigate through the void on your own from then on.
With ever caring love,
Daniel Joseph Phelan
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