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Lyrics for now:
"I'm being overwhelmed I'm losing control
my childhood ripped away my innocence they stole
It's time to learn true fear on reckoning day
the grand finale I'll never shed a tear
I want to piss on the ashes of your twisted world
I wanna watch the whole fucking thing burn, burn, burn
Because all I have is hate for our twisted world
and when it falls I'll die laughing"
-Blood for Blood :: Die Laughing
"Love is not forever
Friendship is not forever
There is nothing set in stone
You're on your own
Dependence is followed by weakness
Don't be your own hostage
If I know so many
Why don't they know me
They don't know me"
-Tsnunami Bomb :: ...Not Forever
Now I know what we're made of
Confusion, Complication, and Uncertainty
I thought this was real, I was wrong
So I don't' know
Nick, I am not going to apologize to you. If you thought I would, you were very much mistaken. I don't have anything to feel sorry for. I said those things, and I meant them. You said you were just angry when you said them. I took them to heart. You still said them, so they still hurt. I am not going to do what I used to do and let you think everything is fine. Everything is not fine. You can't always try to make things better by saying sorry. You were ridiculous yesterday on so many different levels.
The only people I think deserve an apology would be Jenn, Nicky, Ethan, and all the people who have to read these stupid remarks flying back and forth throughout livjeournal. I mostly feel bad for the first three though because they tryed to get involved or did get involved or tryed not to get involved. Jenn did get involved because the things you say to me are unbelievable. I would have never said any of that kind of stuff yesterday if you wouldn't have opened that door for me. Jenn, being a great friend, came in and tryed to tell you off because you are a prick. Nicky didn't want to get involved. I appreciated that. Thank you Nicky. He was a very good listener though, and gave me good advice. I may not have taken all of your advice, but it was appreciated. Ethan, I always complain about my stupid little drama problems with Nick to you. I am sure it gets old. Why would you want to hear about a girlfriend's ex. I feel bad for that. That is all the people I have to sorry to. Did you notice you weren't one of them Nick?
I will update about my day later. Sorry, for putting this in here but Nick once again, opened the door for me. He wrote about our argument in his livejournal so I am finishing it in mine. I am hopefully going to hang out with Payton. Ethan is going to hang out with Ray today. Which is totally understandable. He hasn't hung out with Ray in forever... because of me. Well, that is it for now.
Katlan
"I'm being overwhelmed I'm losing control
my childhood ripped away my innocence they stole
It's time to learn true fear on reckoning day
the grand finale I'll never shed a tear
I want to piss on the ashes of your twisted world
I wanna watch the whole fucking thing burn, burn, burn
Because all I have is hate for our twisted world
and when it falls I'll die laughing"
-Blood for Blood :: Die Laughing
"Love is not forever
Friendship is not forever
There is nothing set in stone
You're on your own
Dependence is followed by weakness
Don't be your own hostage
If I know so many
Why don't they know me
They don't know me"
-Tsnunami Bomb :: ...Not Forever
Now I know what we're made of
Confusion, Complication, and Uncertainty
I thought this was real, I was wrong
So I don't' know
Nick, I am not going to apologize to you. If you thought I would, you were very much mistaken. I don't have anything to feel sorry for. I said those things, and I meant them. You said you were just angry when you said them. I took them to heart. You still said them, so they still hurt. I am not going to do what I used to do and let you think everything is fine. Everything is not fine. You can't always try to make things better by saying sorry. You were ridiculous yesterday on so many different levels.
The only people I think deserve an apology would be Jenn, Nicky, Ethan, and all the people who have to read these stupid remarks flying back and forth throughout livjeournal. I mostly feel bad for the first three though because they tryed to get involved or did get involved or tryed not to get involved. Jenn did get involved because the things you say to me are unbelievable. I would have never said any of that kind of stuff yesterday if you wouldn't have opened that door for me. Jenn, being a great friend, came in and tryed to tell you off because you are a prick. Nicky didn't want to get involved. I appreciated that. Thank you Nicky. He was a very good listener though, and gave me good advice. I may not have taken all of your advice, but it was appreciated. Ethan, I always complain about my stupid little drama problems with Nick to you. I am sure it gets old. Why would you want to hear about a girlfriend's ex. I feel bad for that. That is all the people I have to sorry to. Did you notice you weren't one of them Nick?
I will update about my day later. Sorry, for putting this in here but Nick once again, opened the door for me. He wrote about our argument in his livejournal so I am finishing it in mine. I am hopefully going to hang out with Payton. Ethan is going to hang out with Ray today. Which is totally understandable. He hasn't hung out with Ray in forever... because of me. Well, that is it for now.
Katlan