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I have problems. I tend to think that no one loves me.
but the funny thing is I don't just think it i kinda know it's true.
taylor has made this very clear to me "erika so many guys fall in love with you" hummmmm NO... they just lust me for a little bit then move on to the next girl. I can turley say that there is not one person in my life that i feel would do anything for me. not one person I feel like i would take a bullet for. no one.
& the sad thing is right now i just feel like i need someone. not someone to love forever.
or someone who just wants to kiss & cuddle.
I need someone I can talk to someone i can tell whats on my mind. a sholder to lean on or something. i just feel so ALONE with everything thats going on right now ERGGGGGGG.
I love taylor & hangin out with the people who i chill with. but i always feel like there could be so much more then what we are doing, i miss summer & i miss having bestfriends who i could talk to anything about. I miss my old life before the fire happend. I miss my cloths, I miss my shoes. I miss telling my mom to fuck off. I would give anything in the world to just go back to June I would not change a thing because I know everything we went threw it made me a stronger person today.
but everyone thinks Im ok now.... and Im far from it.
im staying the night in the new house today. Im quite scared because this is the first thing i have ever done in my life without someone being there to hold my hand, *sigh*
but the funny thing is I don't just think it i kinda know it's true.
taylor has made this very clear to me "erika so many guys fall in love with you" hummmmm NO... they just lust me for a little bit then move on to the next girl. I can turley say that there is not one person in my life that i feel would do anything for me. not one person I feel like i would take a bullet for. no one.
& the sad thing is right now i just feel like i need someone. not someone to love forever.
or someone who just wants to kiss & cuddle.
I need someone I can talk to someone i can tell whats on my mind. a sholder to lean on or something. i just feel so ALONE with everything thats going on right now ERGGGGGGG.
I love taylor & hangin out with the people who i chill with. but i always feel like there could be so much more then what we are doing, i miss summer & i miss having bestfriends who i could talk to anything about. I miss my old life before the fire happend. I miss my cloths, I miss my shoes. I miss telling my mom to fuck off. I would give anything in the world to just go back to June I would not change a thing because I know everything we went threw it made me a stronger person today.
but everyone thinks Im ok now.... and Im far from it.
im staying the night in the new house today. Im quite scared because this is the first thing i have ever done in my life without someone being there to hold my hand, *sigh*