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I like being by myself most of the time. Today is definatly one of those days. I didn't call anyone back, and stayed in my room most of the day. Went out to eat with nona and poppy jack, but didn't really do much talking. They probably think something is wrong, as always. Just iritable.
I did alot of refecting today. Mostly why I feel a certian way about a certian person. I really don't feel like going into detail tonight. I thought I had it under control. I stopped thinking about them. Very hard for me to do indeed. Then they just push their way back through. And I end up feeling like I do right now. Part wishing they were next to me, Part wanting to scream with confusion, Part wanting their attention, Part trying to just move on.
I don't know, and I probably never will.
I don't know how to give up.
Goodnight.
I did alot of refecting today. Mostly why I feel a certian way about a certian person. I really don't feel like going into detail tonight. I thought I had it under control. I stopped thinking about them. Very hard for me to do indeed. Then they just push their way back through. And I end up feeling like I do right now. Part wishing they were next to me, Part wanting to scream with confusion, Part wanting their attention, Part trying to just move on.
I don't know, and I probably never will.
I don't know how to give up.
Goodnight.