Dec 06, 2005 18:43
I don't have bad days. I just have off days.
A lot of off days.
The last couple of years.
Okay, so I see all these people in relationships, and I just want to kind of lash out and get in a relationship real quick like. AKA: be stupid and get into something that's just going to suck.
someone smack me and say no...
i wrote jayson a note: and he inturn showed it to everyone and their brother/sister/distant cousin.
that's a bit of an exageration....but honestly, i've never been that emotional/open with a guy before like that... and he treated it like it didn't mean anything, but it's my fault, he did the same thing to me.
damn i suck.
i keep having horrible dreams... i remember the time he said i could call him and have his parents wake him up, but he'd just hang up now.
what have i done?
irrational, emotional, irresponsable.
i miss him though, he doesn't miss me.