i want to come home.
i really want to come home. im tured of being here. well i actually love san diego, im just tired of being in the dorms... i hate it so much! i cant stand most of the people, i mean there are a few that i love, but the majority i cant stand... it sucks that i hate my roommate the most. having a shitty roommate has def put a damper on my first year of college. the people here are soo fake, its like get over yourself, you dont know everything, just fucking shut up. blahh im really grouchyy.
i dont like april. my grandma would be 90 this thursday.... i miss her soooo much. its almost been a year since she died. i dont know how i made it a year without seeing her or talking to her.hardest thing ever. i jsut want everything to be the way they used to be. i want to be able to go to her house and just talk to her. i have so much to tell her, there is so much i never got to say. when "granny" comes up on my phone, i still hope its her, i knows it not, but i want it to be so bad. i just dont know what to do. i just want to be home and be around people who actually care about me and understand me. no here gets me... i mean i have ariel but she doesnt really understand, and i cant really talk to her about things, our lives are so different. its times like these where i wished i lived closer to home..... i just want to see my friends, i miss them so much and ive only been gone 3 weeks. summer needs to get here faster.
oh and why does school have to be so expensive... i dont know how im going to pay for it next year. as it is i cant even pay for it now. im already late on my houseing payment and i hate asking my sister for money... im sure ill be getting some kind on notice in the next couple days... blah. anyone want to give me 600 dollars? ill pay you back...thanks. but yeah and no one wants to give me a lone because i have no credit and i dont make enough money... dont these people understand that im in school full time and i cant freaking work that much. fuckkk it!!!
rocci was supposed to come this weekend... but now she cant because she doesnt have the money... im sad, it would have been nice to have her here right now... i wish i had a blunt or some alcohol, man that would be nice. i think im just going to get shit faced this weekend, i dont even care... maybe ill go to la with raj and just get hammered and make a fool of myself as usual, maybe meet a boy,, have fun, then peace out. sounds like a good plan.
i dont like april. my grandma would be 90 this thursday.... i miss her soooo much. its almost been a year since she died. i dont know how i made it a year without seeing her or talking to her.hardest thing ever. i jsut want everything to be the way they used to be. i want to be able to go to her house and just talk to her. i have so much to tell her, there is so much i never got to say. when "granny" comes up on my phone, i still hope its her, i knows it not, but i want it to be so bad. i just dont know what to do. i just want to be home and be around people who actually care about me and understand me. no here gets me... i mean i have ariel but she doesnt really understand, and i cant really talk to her about things, our lives are so different. its times like these where i wished i lived closer to home..... i just want to see my friends, i miss them so much and ive only been gone 3 weeks. summer needs to get here faster.
oh and why does school have to be so expensive... i dont know how im going to pay for it next year. as it is i cant even pay for it now. im already late on my houseing payment and i hate asking my sister for money... im sure ill be getting some kind on notice in the next couple days... blah. anyone want to give me 600 dollars? ill pay you back...thanks. but yeah and no one wants to give me a lone because i have no credit and i dont make enough money... dont these people understand that im in school full time and i cant freaking work that much. fuckkk it!!!
rocci was supposed to come this weekend... but now she cant because she doesnt have the money... im sad, it would have been nice to have her here right now... i wish i had a blunt or some alcohol, man that would be nice. i think im just going to get shit faced this weekend, i dont even care... maybe ill go to la with raj and just get hammered and make a fool of myself as usual, maybe meet a boy,, have fun, then peace out. sounds like a good plan.