:: inside nowhere, gets so cold here ::
So, new year. Last year wasn't all bad, but it certainly wasn't all good. I found who I thought was the only one for me, and fell in love, but maybe now I think I might have fallen in love with the way he was to me. But I know I did love him completely, and maybe I still do. I'll always remember him, think about him, look at his picture, wonder where we would have been now if we were still together, remember the times we spent together, and maybe, just maybe, I still get those little butterflies when I think of how he tasted, how he felt, how we held each other. Last night I went for a walk on the beach with my friends, we had a fire and stuff, and it was only when I looked behind me and realised I was right in front of his house. I walked up the beach, like we did in the rain, and remembered. I felt a bit sad, but mostly I was happy, that I can actually think about him and not feel angry or upset, but more content with what we had. He was the best, and worst thing that happened to me last year, and I will never forget him.
It went well with Lewis on monday. We're going to meet up again soon. I don't know if I want to go out with anyone right now, but we get on so well and it's nice to sit and talk with him. Last night was... hectic to say the least. Luke came to mine while I got ready, then Vicki's dad came and picked us up and dropped me, Luke and Vicki at Lukes, then Angie came round and we went to Emmies for a small gathering. We played on the dance mat and had a fe drinks, and walked down to the beach for midnight, it was quite nice. Me and luke said "Flumixed Brick" all the way from Emmies to the beach, which is a 10 minute walk. We carried on doing it while all the "happy new year" stuff was going on. Then we had a fire and messed about for a bit and then went and got Pizza and walked back to Emmies. Vicki went into an allotment and stole me a sprout/cabbage type plant. Then Carl got really drunk and threw up everywhere and we spent the next few hours looking after him, laughing at him and throwing him into a freezing cold bath. Got a few hours sleep then Vickis dad came and picked us up and dropped me off at home which is where I am now. SO, happy new year everyone, hope everything goes well for you, and you're all happy and well and all that. I go eat after eights now. Yum...
It went well with Lewis on monday. We're going to meet up again soon. I don't know if I want to go out with anyone right now, but we get on so well and it's nice to sit and talk with him. Last night was... hectic to say the least. Luke came to mine while I got ready, then Vicki's dad came and picked us up and dropped me, Luke and Vicki at Lukes, then Angie came round and we went to Emmies for a small gathering. We played on the dance mat and had a fe drinks, and walked down to the beach for midnight, it was quite nice. Me and luke said "Flumixed Brick" all the way from Emmies to the beach, which is a 10 minute walk. We carried on doing it while all the "happy new year" stuff was going on. Then we had a fire and messed about for a bit and then went and got Pizza and walked back to Emmies. Vicki went into an allotment and stole me a sprout/cabbage type plant. Then Carl got really drunk and threw up everywhere and we spent the next few hours looking after him, laughing at him and throwing him into a freezing cold bath. Got a few hours sleep then Vickis dad came and picked us up and dropped me off at home which is where I am now. SO, happy new year everyone, hope everything goes well for you, and you're all happy and well and all that. I go eat after eights now. Yum...