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time for an update i guess...
lately, ive been getting wicked depressed. everything is nice in my life right now..but lately, its all been settling in my head and the dust is finally clearing and all i see is this huge sign with flashing lights saying "You fucked up with school..now you must suffer"...mhmm..sucks..i wanna go back for the spring..i really wanna try and finish school and transfer to another 4 year..i reallyyyyyy want to...but i still dont have that full ambition like i did last year..alot of my ambition was lost when i met brian..i went down a very bad path, and i should not have..and i knew it before hand...it sucks...alot...i wish i wasnt so stupid to sign up for school around here and then just stop going because of my personal life..i fucked up..and now, i dont have $1,000 to pay for this semester and not let my family know i am in debt and failing..i hate myself and my life..
:'(
lately, ive been getting wicked depressed. everything is nice in my life right now..but lately, its all been settling in my head and the dust is finally clearing and all i see is this huge sign with flashing lights saying "You fucked up with school..now you must suffer"...mhmm..sucks..i wanna go back for the spring..i really wanna try and finish school and transfer to another 4 year..i reallyyyyyy want to...but i still dont have that full ambition like i did last year..alot of my ambition was lost when i met brian..i went down a very bad path, and i should not have..and i knew it before hand...it sucks...alot...i wish i wasnt so stupid to sign up for school around here and then just stop going because of my personal life..i fucked up..and now, i dont have $1,000 to pay for this semester and not let my family know i am in debt and failing..i hate myself and my life..
:'(