Goodnight to the Goodtimes
So I go to therapy today. Talk about the usual shit. I mean its therapy, nothing specail. Except this time we get into a conversation that has some real meaning to me. Now she recognizes things in my life that need to be changed.
There are some things in my life that I love. I would kill myself for ANY of my friends and they all know that. But the thing is, in a slow way some of those people may be killing me. My friends all think of me as the one who is always nice to them and will do anything for any of them. But then what happens to me? I get walked on. I get hurt and have to deal with everything.
It sounds so simple to say get rid of the things tha do this to me. But its complicated. These people are my life. And then, will I lose everyone? Waht will they all think of me? they will think that now I am being selfish and not there for them. Even though it might be something i need to do for myself. I cant let them see me be selfish and not put everyone else first. But everything in my life is based on other people. And not me. Its my fault I put them there, but maybe thats what needs to change.
Idk maybe any of you have any suggestions. Let me know.