Goodbye To You
Wow. I really dont even know how to explain how Ive been feeling latley. I guess I dont even really know. I dont even know if I should even be writing any of this, because my whole goal all along was to not let anyone know.
Its actaully really weird because except for a few VERY depressing days after my accident, I aws never really depressed about it or anything like that. Of course I was upset, sad and discouraged, but I was never really depressed. So Once I was able to get around alrite, I went to therapy. She told me to jsut be careful because alot NOT ALL but alot of the time people who experience traumatic experiences will suddenly get hit with a feeling of depression from it months later. Now who knows if this has anything to do with it or not, but its possible.
Anyways. Even though Im not, latley I have been feeling almost lonley. I mean there are always people around, but everything is jsut different. I sort of stuck in the middle right now and im not sure where i should go. I miss my old life, they way thigns used to be, the way I used to be. I just raelly miss the way life used to be. There are certain people I miss, but I know they dont. There are some people that I love and hate at the same time. It drives me insane because I dont know what feeling I am supposed to go with. Everyone has changed. They are all in different places. It wouldnt even seem that Im unhapyp right now, but I am. I have been going out and havign a great time as always, but theres just something missing. I still always feel like Im trying so hard for other people and putting them first when nobody even notices that im not as happy as usual.
Anyways enough of this blabbering. There are more important things! And Ill probably end up deleteing all that in like a day anyways.
KATIE LEFT TO GET KYLE! AND THEY WILL BE HERE TOMORROW! AND I CANT WAIT. NOT ONLY TO SEE HIM BUT KATIE TOO. I MISS HER!!!! but shes having a great time and im SO happy for her!
AND for tomorrow
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CIERRA! I LOVE YOU!