Ive packed a change of clothes and its time to move on.
Simple things like that bother me. Like seeing your name every single time I sign in. I dont want that. I dont know why its there and worst of all I dont know how to get rid of it. Just like you, I never know what to do.
Its weird seeing yourself in a gown and lining up months before graduation. Its too much of a reminder of whats to come. Its too surreal.
it was treason in the form of a heartbreaking. we were marking all our hearts at the highest ransom. hoping that someone would come along and decide it was worth it.
it was a room of hundreds maybe even thousands of what it felt like. and we still saw each other. through peeks and glances of silhouettes. through heads talking and making out we made it through. just for that second our looks locked and then turned away. forgetting all that was lost. and then we became parts of the thousands making out, holding hands pretending that it all somehow mattered. that tomorrow night we wouldnt all be making out with different people. we all gave our bodies to the night and then resurrected our minds in the morning. we all knew nothing lasted.
and I was just hoping. hoping that one of these nights I'd run into you. and we'd become part of the hundreds and thousands. we'd be able to finally give something other than our bodies. we'd be able to stay and look at that same face in the morning. we'd be able to make more than one night. if we actually ever got there first.
and you were just wanting. wanting that piece of you to be full. wanting to have a girl that you could look in the eyes. and she could be wonderful. and you wouldnt feel guilty for the next morning. cause you'd want to spend all other mornings and day afters with her.
but our bodies never met. our eyes just wandered. they searched for each other night after night. and morning after morning they were disappointed. cause when they woke up it wasnt who they were hoping for. and the shadows just crawled up the walls and disappeared. the shoes fell back onto all of our feet and we kept on looking. but it was impossible. impossible to make it through the crowd for long enough to hold each other. long enough to enjoy this moment and this person. those lights and people kept on blinding us.
so we both faded. like stars that were supposed to shine but just couldnt find their fire.
Its weird seeing yourself in a gown and lining up months before graduation. Its too much of a reminder of whats to come. Its too surreal.
it was treason in the form of a heartbreaking. we were marking all our hearts at the highest ransom. hoping that someone would come along and decide it was worth it.
it was a room of hundreds maybe even thousands of what it felt like. and we still saw each other. through peeks and glances of silhouettes. through heads talking and making out we made it through. just for that second our looks locked and then turned away. forgetting all that was lost. and then we became parts of the thousands making out, holding hands pretending that it all somehow mattered. that tomorrow night we wouldnt all be making out with different people. we all gave our bodies to the night and then resurrected our minds in the morning. we all knew nothing lasted.
and I was just hoping. hoping that one of these nights I'd run into you. and we'd become part of the hundreds and thousands. we'd be able to finally give something other than our bodies. we'd be able to stay and look at that same face in the morning. we'd be able to make more than one night. if we actually ever got there first.
and you were just wanting. wanting that piece of you to be full. wanting to have a girl that you could look in the eyes. and she could be wonderful. and you wouldnt feel guilty for the next morning. cause you'd want to spend all other mornings and day afters with her.
but our bodies never met. our eyes just wandered. they searched for each other night after night. and morning after morning they were disappointed. cause when they woke up it wasnt who they were hoping for. and the shadows just crawled up the walls and disappeared. the shoes fell back onto all of our feet and we kept on looking. but it was impossible. impossible to make it through the crowd for long enough to hold each other. long enough to enjoy this moment and this person. those lights and people kept on blinding us.
so we both faded. like stars that were supposed to shine but just couldnt find their fire.