Dear LJ
Dear LJ,
I know its been a while since I confided in you, but its been so much more convenient to write in my Journal. Especially when I really just want to document my thoughts and feelings. "Talking" to you, as much as it is therapeutic, is so much more than that. Its my way of getting to know other people through their entries. I guess its just the voyeur in moi! Beats meeting Yahooligans and Yahoes.
Alot has happened since my last "confession", let me try playing catch-up. My schedule now is as hectic as ever. I am on call at work six days a week, which means I am usually supposed to be there anyway. I got my own "office", so I do have lotsa time to work on my personal projects. Unfortunately/Fortunately Laura's store is only a few blocks away. So I kill time there too when I'm bored and in-case they need me at work I can be back in ten minutes.
Speaking of Laura, I was at her job a couple of times when Ms Cathy(her mom) called and she sounded so happy to hear my voice, she was her normal self. She asked about Jade and how Leena and I were doing. I kept trying to thank her for playing the mother-figure when I needed it most, but she would hear nothing of it. I promised to go see her when she got out of the hospital, but she joked about losing her girlish figure (she was in her late fifties) and how she didn't want anyone to see her like this. She was in such good spirits that it hit me like a brick when Leena told me she passed away. That was the longest ride to work I had ever had. Leena just held my hand while streams and streams of tears poured for what seemed like an eternity. You never know how much you take anyone for granted until they are gone. I remember seeing her walkling Shelby(the dog) every morning on my way to school. I wonder if he understands. They were inseparable for years. How she used to babysit Adrianna(my god-daughter/her grandaughter) and Keon(her grand-son) over our house and how much fun keon had playing in the yard with his grand-ma. The there is Charles (Keon's father/ Cahy's son/ Laura's brother). I hate to be judgemental, but Charles is a loser, can't kick his really bad drug habit, even tried stealing from us after we let him sleep on crash on the couch. Keon dosen't like him much either which is a shame. and then there's pretty-boy David. David is gay or bisexual which isn't such a bad thing, but he also has a really bad coke habit, can't keep a job either.... Laura's case is even sadder. The second closest female she had in her life, Stacy some really rich banker's daughter keeps jumping from rehab to rehab, not that its helping any so they drifted apart. and now her mother/sister/best-friend/confidante passes away. I am really worried about Laura 'cuz she and I have something in common. We avoid stress at all costs. I am just better at dealing with the inevitable. She is really not. So many peoples' lives are hugely affected by Ms Cathy's untimely death, I belive there is a reason for everything, but this one is beyond my comprehension.
to be continued.....
I know its been a while since I confided in you, but its been so much more convenient to write in my Journal. Especially when I really just want to document my thoughts and feelings. "Talking" to you, as much as it is therapeutic, is so much more than that. Its my way of getting to know other people through their entries. I guess its just the voyeur in moi! Beats meeting Yahooligans and Yahoes.
Alot has happened since my last "confession", let me try playing catch-up. My schedule now is as hectic as ever. I am on call at work six days a week, which means I am usually supposed to be there anyway. I got my own "office", so I do have lotsa time to work on my personal projects. Unfortunately/Fortunately Laura's store is only a few blocks away. So I kill time there too when I'm bored and in-case they need me at work I can be back in ten minutes.
Speaking of Laura, I was at her job a couple of times when Ms Cathy(her mom) called and she sounded so happy to hear my voice, she was her normal self. She asked about Jade and how Leena and I were doing. I kept trying to thank her for playing the mother-figure when I needed it most, but she would hear nothing of it. I promised to go see her when she got out of the hospital, but she joked about losing her girlish figure (she was in her late fifties) and how she didn't want anyone to see her like this. She was in such good spirits that it hit me like a brick when Leena told me she passed away. That was the longest ride to work I had ever had. Leena just held my hand while streams and streams of tears poured for what seemed like an eternity. You never know how much you take anyone for granted until they are gone. I remember seeing her walkling Shelby(the dog) every morning on my way to school. I wonder if he understands. They were inseparable for years. How she used to babysit Adrianna(my god-daughter/her grandaughter) and Keon(her grand-son) over our house and how much fun keon had playing in the yard with his grand-ma. The there is Charles (Keon's father/ Cahy's son/ Laura's brother). I hate to be judgemental, but Charles is a loser, can't kick his really bad drug habit, even tried stealing from us after we let him sleep on crash on the couch. Keon dosen't like him much either which is a shame. and then there's pretty-boy David. David is gay or bisexual which isn't such a bad thing, but he also has a really bad coke habit, can't keep a job either.... Laura's case is even sadder. The second closest female she had in her life, Stacy some really rich banker's daughter keeps jumping from rehab to rehab, not that its helping any so they drifted apart. and now her mother/sister/best-friend/confidante passes away. I am really worried about Laura 'cuz she and I have something in common. We avoid stress at all costs. I am just better at dealing with the inevitable. She is really not. So many peoples' lives are hugely affected by Ms Cathy's untimely death, I belive there is a reason for everything, but this one is beyond my comprehension.
to be continued.....