Leena's Bombshell
In a nutshell, this is how Leena feels about me(yeah she had to break it down); she loves and cares about me alot but she dosen't think the feeling is mutual and this is why!(Here is where the ranting starts). I feel like since we only have one life to live, we should really make the most of it and try to be as happy as possible without hurtin other people, that being said, thats why i told Leena when we started dating, if she ever felt like I was making her unhappy or she would be happier with someone else. I would always be her friend, but not to hesitate to let me know. leena was a friend long before she was a gf so she knew what I was like, but for some reason she decided that that meant I didn't care if we stayed together. (sigh...women!) All through our relationship she also kept mentioning how I never got jealous. Ok this is my take on it, she is an attractive woman, she is currently my gf and also my friend, I know better than to trust, but I assume she isn't cheating on me...I know I know, Assuming will make an Ass outta me, but hey I really don't want to worry about if she's creeping or not if she's happy, i'm happy. (At least till I find out). So I did brag to my friends about that, but I SWEAR I didn't mean it in the way she heard it. I meant the way I felt about our relationship, I didn't think she would cheat on me, but of course those were not the exact terms I used. When Leena heard this she decided I was wrong so this is what happened;
We were living together at the time and we used to go to New-York once in a while to shop. Well she springs on me that she wanted to go to NY to see a friend. It never really crossed my mind that this was anything more than a friend. I casually asked who it was and she told me the only friend she had in NY. I knew who she was and I had talked to her a couple of times and she sounded like a nice pserson, so I thought nothing of it. There must have been @ least another trip that I can remember. Anyway @ this point we had a don't ask, don't tell agreement and I wasn't in a position to ask. (Oh the good olde days). Then she said her friend was coming to visit, coincidentally, I needed some me time that weekend, so I suggested I stay over @ a friend's and she and her friend can share the queen bed. I don't remeber when exactly I started sensing something wasn't right, but when I walked in one day and she turned off the computer rather abruptly, I knew she was hiding something. I am never serious so I joked about her cheating on me and I said well you know if you leave evidence on the computer I can get to it. She casually said "I changed my password". Now I knew something was up; her password has always been Xavier or something close ust like mine....anyway. so me being me I told her exactly how I felt; Her hiding anything from me is going to hurt me way worse than anything she could ever be doing. and that I was going to find out what it is. So I hacked into the computer, aol, yahoo and everything I could find.
Turns out Leena and her friend had grown quite close and remember that one weekend when I need some me time and I suggested the two queens share the queen bed? Well... they did! I also found out she had kept so much from me which was to be expected since i was keeping alot from her too, but this totally took me by surprise; Her friend wasn't an old buddy from middle school, she met her on yahoo (I had to get an account after that, she was kinda fine). She had also lent her some money which wasn't really a problem, but I had asked her opinion about lending a friend of mine some money and she had in no uncertain terms said she wouldn't lend that much money especially to a friend. So anyway I was pretty hurt, not because she cheated on me, but believe it or not because I felt her friend was making her happier than I was. I could care less about them sleeping together, hell I had already had 2 threesomes before and I still have one of the tapes.:-) Anyway...
I told her I knew what was going on and I was dissapointed she didn't tell me. I guess she did want an argument 'cuz she took the offensive like a mf and next thing I know it went from "It seemed like you were throwing us together that weekend" to "well ur the one with the "friends" why do u care what I do...". I didn't feel like getting into all that explainin that I wasn't mad 'cuz she cheated and all that so I do what I do...Bounced.
We got over that and I assumed she was seing other women 'cuz I had specifically said if she wanted to see a guy I couldn't be with her anymore and that she better be careful who she was with 'cuz if I ever caught anything.... She said her friends knew she was bi-sexual but not to let them know about the NY incident. I was livid 'cuz her friends were always cool with me especially Gabriella, for her not to tell me was rather unexpected. So when I got a chance I talked to Gaby. I am bluntly honest when I talk to Gaby. She asked if I was jealous and I said yeah, but I didn't explain to her why she told me should couldn't explain it but it wasn't what I thought and that I should trust her, so I did!....
Ok Fast forward maybe 3 years later, Leena and I talking over dinner and she says; I just wanted to tell you I'm not bi-sexual. I start laughing 'cuz she ahd told me before she wasn't attracted to women anymore. I said whatever works for you and she stops and says I never was. At that point i'm confused i'm thinking she's gonna say she is lesbian or somthing. She reminded me of that weekend incident. Turns out that was the one and only time she had been with a woman or with anybody else for that matter so I asked about Carmen (Bi-sexual friend of hers) She said it never happened I was even more confused 'cuz Carmen told me it did more than once. So she said if I don't believe her talk to Gaby 'cuz she was waiting for me to call. So I did and Gaby told me everything that happened. Apparently Leena wanted to make me jealous but knew I would never take her back if she cheated on me with another guy so she wanted to make it seem like she was happier without me. She didn't plan the yahoo thing and she then when that wasn't working she talked to her "friend" and you know how that goes.... She never talked to her friend again, funny how I didn't even notice that. but she was happy she finally made me jealous that she decided to go with the bi-sexual thing, she told her friend what she was gonna do and they all were in on it. Thats why Gaby had said It wasn't what it seemed like. I had gaby on speaker phone, but I still couldn't believe it. So we called Carmen and that conversation was hilarious 'cuz Carmen really is bi-sexual and we always joked about who is better in bed her or me, so when we called her, she thought it was hilarious 'cuz whenever I said a smart-mouth sexual comment to her she would respond " Thats not what ur girl said last night" and that never even happened. So right before she gets off the phone, she says but Leena if you ever change ur mind let me know, we can even let X watch. Like I wasn't even there.
Yeah so Leena had been acting bi-sexual for 3 years, she was going to Texas for a week and I guess wanted to give me time to think about it 'cuz she knows more than anything in the world, I hate for her to lie to me, but just like a devious woman she is, timing was the key; I was sick, she did her nurse routine, the maid routine, the cook routine, and when she had me all softened up, laid it on me... Now thats game!
We were living together at the time and we used to go to New-York once in a while to shop. Well she springs on me that she wanted to go to NY to see a friend. It never really crossed my mind that this was anything more than a friend. I casually asked who it was and she told me the only friend she had in NY. I knew who she was and I had talked to her a couple of times and she sounded like a nice pserson, so I thought nothing of it. There must have been @ least another trip that I can remember. Anyway @ this point we had a don't ask, don't tell agreement and I wasn't in a position to ask. (Oh the good olde days). Then she said her friend was coming to visit, coincidentally, I needed some me time that weekend, so I suggested I stay over @ a friend's and she and her friend can share the queen bed. I don't remeber when exactly I started sensing something wasn't right, but when I walked in one day and she turned off the computer rather abruptly, I knew she was hiding something. I am never serious so I joked about her cheating on me and I said well you know if you leave evidence on the computer I can get to it. She casually said "I changed my password". Now I knew something was up; her password has always been Xavier or something close ust like mine....anyway. so me being me I told her exactly how I felt; Her hiding anything from me is going to hurt me way worse than anything she could ever be doing. and that I was going to find out what it is. So I hacked into the computer, aol, yahoo and everything I could find.
Turns out Leena and her friend had grown quite close and remember that one weekend when I need some me time and I suggested the two queens share the queen bed? Well... they did! I also found out she had kept so much from me which was to be expected since i was keeping alot from her too, but this totally took me by surprise; Her friend wasn't an old buddy from middle school, she met her on yahoo (I had to get an account after that, she was kinda fine). She had also lent her some money which wasn't really a problem, but I had asked her opinion about lending a friend of mine some money and she had in no uncertain terms said she wouldn't lend that much money especially to a friend. So anyway I was pretty hurt, not because she cheated on me, but believe it or not because I felt her friend was making her happier than I was. I could care less about them sleeping together, hell I had already had 2 threesomes before and I still have one of the tapes.:-) Anyway...
I told her I knew what was going on and I was dissapointed she didn't tell me. I guess she did want an argument 'cuz she took the offensive like a mf and next thing I know it went from "It seemed like you were throwing us together that weekend" to "well ur the one with the "friends" why do u care what I do...". I didn't feel like getting into all that explainin that I wasn't mad 'cuz she cheated and all that so I do what I do...Bounced.
We got over that and I assumed she was seing other women 'cuz I had specifically said if she wanted to see a guy I couldn't be with her anymore and that she better be careful who she was with 'cuz if I ever caught anything.... She said her friends knew she was bi-sexual but not to let them know about the NY incident. I was livid 'cuz her friends were always cool with me especially Gabriella, for her not to tell me was rather unexpected. So when I got a chance I talked to Gaby. I am bluntly honest when I talk to Gaby. She asked if I was jealous and I said yeah, but I didn't explain to her why she told me should couldn't explain it but it wasn't what I thought and that I should trust her, so I did!....
Ok Fast forward maybe 3 years later, Leena and I talking over dinner and she says; I just wanted to tell you I'm not bi-sexual. I start laughing 'cuz she ahd told me before she wasn't attracted to women anymore. I said whatever works for you and she stops and says I never was. At that point i'm confused i'm thinking she's gonna say she is lesbian or somthing. She reminded me of that weekend incident. Turns out that was the one and only time she had been with a woman or with anybody else for that matter so I asked about Carmen (Bi-sexual friend of hers) She said it never happened I was even more confused 'cuz Carmen told me it did more than once. So she said if I don't believe her talk to Gaby 'cuz she was waiting for me to call. So I did and Gaby told me everything that happened. Apparently Leena wanted to make me jealous but knew I would never take her back if she cheated on me with another guy so she wanted to make it seem like she was happier without me. She didn't plan the yahoo thing and she then when that wasn't working she talked to her "friend" and you know how that goes.... She never talked to her friend again, funny how I didn't even notice that. but she was happy she finally made me jealous that she decided to go with the bi-sexual thing, she told her friend what she was gonna do and they all were in on it. Thats why Gaby had said It wasn't what it seemed like. I had gaby on speaker phone, but I still couldn't believe it. So we called Carmen and that conversation was hilarious 'cuz Carmen really is bi-sexual and we always joked about who is better in bed her or me, so when we called her, she thought it was hilarious 'cuz whenever I said a smart-mouth sexual comment to her she would respond " Thats not what ur girl said last night" and that never even happened. So right before she gets off the phone, she says but Leena if you ever change ur mind let me know, we can even let X watch. Like I wasn't even there.
Yeah so Leena had been acting bi-sexual for 3 years, she was going to Texas for a week and I guess wanted to give me time to think about it 'cuz she knows more than anything in the world, I hate for her to lie to me, but just like a devious woman she is, timing was the key; I was sick, she did her nurse routine, the maid routine, the cook routine, and when she had me all softened up, laid it on me... Now thats game!