a bit of a mess
well I don't know what the subject should be today.
its been a while since I updated my journal, but i'm not apologising for that.
Recently I have decided its time to stand up for myself, stop apologising and tell everyone how it is for me rather than staying silent and being walked all over. Basically I'm going to become a pain in the ass up front bitch, just like an aucklander but PROUDLY not one :)
I just read Casey's journal and i feel for her. i had a friend die when we were 15 and it hurts. there is no other word for it. and Casey, if you read this, it will hurt for a long time, but eventually you will learn how to deal with it in a way that makes you happy instead of sad. I still think of Libby, and what she would be doing with her life now, and i guess it hurts that shes gone, but shes still in all of our hearts.
On another tangent, I went into winz today to see if they would send me to the 6 week territorial traing camp thing at the army base, but it doesnt look promising. Work wont hold my job open for 6 weeks, and because I wont have a job to come back to winz wont send me. Well its not definite yet but its not promising.
I joined the polytechnic gym today :) my first session is tomorrow :) I'm quite looking forward to it.
I still miss my ex. I know i shouldnt but i do. He has made it pretty clear he doesnt feel the same way though. Oh well, these things happen to gals like me. Thats ok, I'll get over it eventually.
I love my new pc.
I'm listening to alanis morrissette and I love this music. It's very raw, but melodic and it reflecs exactly how I feel at the moment. I dont claim at all to be a music reviewer by the way.
xav
its been a while since I updated my journal, but i'm not apologising for that.
Recently I have decided its time to stand up for myself, stop apologising and tell everyone how it is for me rather than staying silent and being walked all over. Basically I'm going to become a pain in the ass up front bitch, just like an aucklander but PROUDLY not one :)
I just read Casey's journal and i feel for her. i had a friend die when we were 15 and it hurts. there is no other word for it. and Casey, if you read this, it will hurt for a long time, but eventually you will learn how to deal with it in a way that makes you happy instead of sad. I still think of Libby, and what she would be doing with her life now, and i guess it hurts that shes gone, but shes still in all of our hearts.
On another tangent, I went into winz today to see if they would send me to the 6 week territorial traing camp thing at the army base, but it doesnt look promising. Work wont hold my job open for 6 weeks, and because I wont have a job to come back to winz wont send me. Well its not definite yet but its not promising.
I joined the polytechnic gym today :) my first session is tomorrow :) I'm quite looking forward to it.
I still miss my ex. I know i shouldnt but i do. He has made it pretty clear he doesnt feel the same way though. Oh well, these things happen to gals like me. Thats ok, I'll get over it eventually.
I love my new pc.
I'm listening to alanis morrissette and I love this music. It's very raw, but melodic and it reflecs exactly how I feel at the moment. I dont claim at all to be a music reviewer by the way.
xav