My Heart's Wasting
My Heart’s Wasting
Daniel Xavier
I searched for the field where we once stood.
An expedition through the depths of my heart.
I wanted to find peace any which way I could.
But there’ve been changes from us being torn apart.
Our once great grassy plain,
Strewn with beautiful rainbow flowers.
Where, together, our happiness would reign.
Our sanctuary for countless hours.
Where we manifested our Love without fear.
Hand in hand, our walks through the summer breeze.
Sitting by the water sparkling crystal clear,
Where we’d laugh and tease.
I searched for the field where we spent our days.
An expedition through the vastness of my heart.
Lost forever, claimed by a thirsty blaze,
There’ve been changes since we’ve been apart.
A barren wasteland was all I found.
Emptiness, deprived of all its greatness.
Once lit, now darkness bound.
Hopeless, this field was peaceless.
Not even a single blade of grass.
Not a ray of light shone through the dark cloud.
A horrid flash, a spark alas!
Roars of anger, hate, the thunder loud.
I fall upon my weary knees.
My heart stops, I scream in pain.
Can’t let go of our memories.
Tears bleed; the only rain.
I cry out your name.
I confess, I cannot live without you.
I find myself to blame.
I dearly miss you.
Your hugs that pulled me in.
Your smile that erased all wrong
Your kiss that cleansed all outside sin
Your voice, my favorite song.
I cry out your name.
I cannot let go.
Without you, it’s just not the same.
Alone, my life just doesn’t flow.
The hurt within my chest.
The sorrow within my mind.
This Loss who would’ve guessed?
This Darkness is all I find.
The fading of my weakening soul.
My hopes turn to ash and drift away
With the dreams that darkness stole.
My world is now but shades of gray.
I cried for you to stay.
To give it the chance and try,
But you have gone away,
And left me as our sanctuary:
To die…