random i dont know what.

[xashyx07x]

So my Grandma got me thinking about stuff today. Its weird how it all started. I sat down on the couch and she just came and sat next to me and put her arm around me and said "oh Ashy I love you." Not that she doesnt normally do this but today it was different. It got me thinking about how i drift farther and father from her all the time. i remember when i was little i was always so exicted if i got to spend the night with her at my great grandmas. and i was happy just to sit at the kitchen table with my grandma and great grandma and play cards for hours. mind you it was the same game over and over and it never ever changed. and you always were in bed at 10 no earlier no later and thats just how it went. or how i used to sit there with her and do word search puzzles for hours on end. or in the summer how me, my grandma, and my great grandma would sit outside on the patio until it got too dark or too cold to sit out there. and when there was no school how my she would always let me go to lunch with her and her friends on tuesdays. and wednesday night was bowling night and if i went i had to sit at the table and behave or she would threaten to never let me go again. and thursday mornings was breakfast with the bowling ladies but i never got to talk. i just had to sit there and be polite. then friday i might get to go to my great grandmas again with her and my uncle would bring doughnuts over and grandma myers, grandma barb, uncle jerry, and aunt bev would play cards but i didnt get to play i just had to sit and watch. then almost every saturday we went to a craft show with her friend phyllis and after you almost always went to lunch. and i remember anythign for school she was always there. then when my great grandma died and my grandma was afriad to stay alone at home she stayed the night at our house every single night. and i thought it was fun to share a room with her. i loved having her here. then when she got her new house wednesday was always the best day of the week becuase i got to spend the night with her. and i guess its still like that in a way. my grandma is one of my best friends. even though i get really annoyed with her i love her to death. i really think i need to spend more time with her though. shes an extraordinary person and i envy her for it. i wish i could be half the woman she is. shes been through heartbreak and upset and still came through it with a smile. and now even though she knows she basically losing her mind she still comes through it with a smile every single day. she really is i think one of the greatest people i have ever met.

so i dont know what the point of that was. i really dont think there was one. but today when she hugged me she just got me thinking.