self realization
That subject puts nothing into perspective. I'm really not realizing anything, in fact the concept of realization is about as far from the truth as I could get right now. A better subject would be more posed to include words such as "conflict", "purpose", and "thought" however, such a heading would shed too much light onto the process within, as there really isn't much more to discover regarding such a situation. Specifics are unnecessary and, not forboding a dynamic disaster of some kind, quite boring. We're possessed here to make decisions, most of which seem to come without much trouble, but to keep things weighted appropriately we must be forced to uphold our own judgement in more complicated scenarios. We can't change the future because we don't know what we would be changing, and that's the only true source of reality we have to rely on.