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i have heard the story jeremy, and i wasn't trying to be bitchy. I was genuinely cut when you didn't say hi to me the other night. The thing is i did consider us friends. The only reason i never came out to ur place all the time was beacause of all the drugs being consumed there.That and i couldn't escape the feeling that u felt used when every1 would use ur place to get trashed. It hurts me more to learn you think me self centered, i thought considering ur ability to see through people u'd know i'm not like that. I didn't come right up to you the other night, but i felt certain you saw who I was. I didn't remember your less than perfect vision and i recall you weren't wearing ur glasses when i said hi the other night. So for that I'm sorry. I probably should have called and asked what happened rather than post on lj... Nicki and i had a massive fight the day after i saw you and i'v been acting rather irationaly since then. I'm not trying to make an excuse, just trying to make things right.
Last year when i landed myself in rehab i tried purging myself of all negative influence and people in order to ensure my recovery. I guess part of me was more angry that you did it better than me. I guess that makes me arrogent more so than self centered.
If you want to talk about any of this you have my number... i just hope i havent screwed up any chance of us being friends in the future.
(my foot does like to live in my mouth for some reason.)
Deeply sorry, X.
Last year when i landed myself in rehab i tried purging myself of all negative influence and people in order to ensure my recovery. I guess part of me was more angry that you did it better than me. I guess that makes me arrogent more so than self centered.
If you want to talk about any of this you have my number... i just hope i havent screwed up any chance of us being friends in the future.
(my foot does like to live in my mouth for some reason.)
Deeply sorry, X.