Waking up early and superstition
why is it the week i work late i wake up before my alarm would normally go off to tell me to get up? I think it's bad karma. i suppose i'm a fairly superstitious person really. i like to think that i'm not, but i have to face it, i am. i get my star sign emailed to me every day, so before i start work i can read it and wonder about whether i should tell my boss "not possible" that day. if i see a black cat, i pause and hope i don't scare the fucker into crossing my path. i always walk around the outside of ladders and the idea of breaking a mirror terrifies me. i throw salt over my shoulder if its spilled, what else is there? I'm sure there is more, and i probably worry about them too.
Anyhow back to karma. I've done quite a few things I'm not proud of in the last year, that hopefully I have made amends for, repaid my debts, but i still feel guilt for them, so does that mean i haven't repaid my debts? something else to worry about.
This is my horoscope for today. Forgive me if I think it's completely wrong and don't see how this could have any correlation to my day ahead.
A small corner is turned today that is set to have huge consequences. Venus, planet of love, moves into your romantic and creative sector, bringing you to the most fun focused and romantic periods of the year, which once begun, will continue to dominate your chart right through until the end of the year. Normally a passing phase, this is a major change in focus that is set to see some very happy and fun months ahead.
BULLSHIT. the world is mocking me.
I feel like I should go and read some Hardy just for the pathos. Maybe Tess of The D'urbervilles. Coz she was screwed from the start. It all begins with the wheel coming off the cart and the horse dies. She works on a farm and gets raped by the rich man's son. She has a child from the rape who then dies (she named the child sorrow).She goes to another farm and falls in love. The night before their wedding she confesses that she was raped and he dumps her for it because she isn't who he thought she was anymore. He father dies. Her family becomes homeless. She becomes the mistress of the man who raped her. She murders him. Her lover returns and they run away from the scene of the crime only to be caught and Tess is executed while her sister then gets to run off with Tess' man. And the entire time the weather reflects her every mood, and is a portent of things to come.
Anyhow - depressing. I hope everyone stays out of my face today. This is the warning that they wont read.
Anyhow back to karma. I've done quite a few things I'm not proud of in the last year, that hopefully I have made amends for, repaid my debts, but i still feel guilt for them, so does that mean i haven't repaid my debts? something else to worry about.
This is my horoscope for today. Forgive me if I think it's completely wrong and don't see how this could have any correlation to my day ahead.
A small corner is turned today that is set to have huge consequences. Venus, planet of love, moves into your romantic and creative sector, bringing you to the most fun focused and romantic periods of the year, which once begun, will continue to dominate your chart right through until the end of the year. Normally a passing phase, this is a major change in focus that is set to see some very happy and fun months ahead.
BULLSHIT. the world is mocking me.
I feel like I should go and read some Hardy just for the pathos. Maybe Tess of The D'urbervilles. Coz she was screwed from the start. It all begins with the wheel coming off the cart and the horse dies. She works on a farm and gets raped by the rich man's son. She has a child from the rape who then dies (she named the child sorrow).She goes to another farm and falls in love. The night before their wedding she confesses that she was raped and he dumps her for it because she isn't who he thought she was anymore. He father dies. Her family becomes homeless. She becomes the mistress of the man who raped her. She murders him. Her lover returns and they run away from the scene of the crime only to be caught and Tess is executed while her sister then gets to run off with Tess' man. And the entire time the weather reflects her every mood, and is a portent of things to come.
Anyhow - depressing. I hope everyone stays out of my face today. This is the warning that they wont read.