Mouth wide open
I miss writing in LJ though I check it every now an again to see what people are saying. I think i need to start up again. Month's ago, for some reason, I started to actually care about about what people read about me, thinking that people might read it wrong - or maybe I'm giving up to much information to strangers on the web. But I still have alot to say....& maybe i shouldnt care so much.
I am also not the same person i was a 1-2/3-4 years ago. Which i guess is okay and expected. But really, I just am not.
I still have my strong morals, big dreams, want to help everyone, and I still believe I am a good person - though others have demanded that i might not, without knowing the real truths. BUT, I really do think that the only real "bad" thing about me was not saying more, which goes back to the whole hiding my thoughts on things.
By not saying more I mean... An apology when needed, a defense of my own decisions, protecting someone from truths, trying to keep feeling from getting hurt, trying to keep myself from getting hurt, demanding more, asking less, etc... its all a double edge sword really.
But hey, in the end time reveals its truths. That being said, I'm still a girl with feelings, dreams, goals.. I NEED freindships, love, an ear (to vent) and most importantly understanding...
So maybe I will come back to LJ... Maybe you should ask me an unresolved issue, maybe its time to answer it.... Maybe... I dont know.
I am also not the same person i was a 1-2/3-4 years ago. Which i guess is okay and expected. But really, I just am not.
I still have my strong morals, big dreams, want to help everyone, and I still believe I am a good person - though others have demanded that i might not, without knowing the real truths. BUT, I really do think that the only real "bad" thing about me was not saying more, which goes back to the whole hiding my thoughts on things.
By not saying more I mean... An apology when needed, a defense of my own decisions, protecting someone from truths, trying to keep feeling from getting hurt, trying to keep myself from getting hurt, demanding more, asking less, etc... its all a double edge sword really.
But hey, in the end time reveals its truths. That being said, I'm still a girl with feelings, dreams, goals.. I NEED freindships, love, an ear (to vent) and most importantly understanding...
So maybe I will come back to LJ... Maybe you should ask me an unresolved issue, maybe its time to answer it.... Maybe... I dont know.