My Life Is Like A Box Of Chocolates - Yup, It Looks Like Shit

[xappyxtrailsx]

I’m very depressed right now, and I mean VERY depressed. No, I’m not feeling suicidal or anything but, damn! My life is so fucking fucked up! I fucking suck! I love horses, I really do, and I can do all sorts of groundwork with them but as soon as my foot touches that stirrup I’m a nervous wreck and can’t do diddily dick! Spot’s going to waste and

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[xdarkxseraphx]

You mean a lot to me too, Charli. I agree: even though we've never met face to face, I still consider you one of my best friends. You're really the only friend I have, real or online, that I can actually talk to about horses and it doesn't just end there. I can't recall one time when I ever didn't want to talk to you, no matter the subject. (Though I have to say you are a little obsessed with that Treize Gundam Wing dude) I consider myself fortunate to have met you. And it's nice that I know someone up in Canada for when I get my rebel ass booted out of the US, lol.
All the advice that I can really give is get in the saddle. Riding young horses can be terrifing. Hell, riding period can be terrifing. But you can't overcome anything if you don't get up there though. I'll admit that there have been times I've been so scared I didn't want to get back on. Whether it was fear of loosing face or getting hurt, I can remember breaking down in tears and going and hiding in the back of my car because I didn't want to ride. But I did. Even though the horse was a complete fucking dumb ass, I looked like shit in the arena, I broke pattern, it took be forever to run (actually skitter to and around) the barrels, and I felt like a damn idiot, I did it. And, though I went from being freaked to kicking Red's ass I was so pissed, I'm glad I did.
I guess what I am trying to say is just ride. Whether it's Spot or some other horse, don't let fears, however silly they may seem, fester and certainly don't give up something you love. (And I know you love horses, don't deny it) Even if you don't ride right now, do more groundwork than you can shake a stick at. It'll really strengthen your bond with Spot and maybe lead to you feeling better about riding her. Try lounging, going for walks, training for tricks, clicker training (yes, it seems tacky, but it's kind of fun and, though it might not work miracles, it's how I taught my punk to half way accept a bridle), bending excercises and frame work on the ground... the list goes on. You don't need to ride, or even show for that matter, to have fun with horses.

And I wrote too much and LJ sucks with it's 4300 character limits, so to be continued in next post!