I wont feel so bad about this being all about me since it's my journal (still working on the acknowledging others w/o feeling overwhelmed by my own emotions if that makes any sense
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May be long.....steeleheartAugust 26 2006, 05:21:55 UTC
Each paragraph is in response to the ones above. One paragraph of mine to one of your's. (Except for the paragraph about putting it into a journal entry.)
You may find it hard to put your thoughts down. But, as long as you put them down, it is better than saying nothing at all. As far as I am concerned, what’s done is done. You (nor I) can change the past. What is wrong, is only in the eyes of the sayer. Not keeping in touch with those not around you, or meet with you on a daily or weekly base, is not as easy to do as most think. We all have our personal lives and problems to deal with. This does not mean that we don’t think of you, nor you us. You do care. This entry shows that. Maybe you don’t care to do it everyday, but once in a while is enough for me. (Look at my own journal for the scattering of entries.) Yes, as I said, you do care, as the posts show as well as feeling bad about not posting more. I am sorry to hear that you are lonely. I wish that there was something that I could say or do to reduce the feeling.
I think that you are dealing with this in a good way. Talking about it is a good start to resolving it. There have been many times that I have thought that I was burnt out. Not wanting to do anything. Just wanting to sleep all the time. Maybe not as bad as you are having it, but I can relate. Taking things a day at a time is sometimes the only way to deal with life. In fact that is how I deal with everyday. ‘Yesterday can’t be changed, and tomorrow will never get here.’ As for the rest of the paragraph beginning with “Before I met Enoch,…” I don’t know the backstory here, so I can’t reply with much. But, as to focusing on the bi-polar stuff, that could be a good starting point.
As for myself, I understand your position and situation. Therefore I hold nothing against you. To me, it doesn’t matter if the ‘friendship energies’ are equal between us. I will still give as much as I have, if not more. If you don’t return it in kind, that does not change the friendship that I have with you. Again as for myself, as I can only speak for myself and express my own opinion, I don’t care what you say, the dact that you are talking to me, that there is the free flow of communication, is all that matters to me.
Hun, I take everything that people say to me with a grain of salt, some with a truckload. I don’t take things at face value. I try to understand fully what that person is saying, not only the words but the frame of reference and viewpoint that the person is coming from. I know that the depressions are real, and can be VERY severe. I know this from personal experience. I have a friend that is bi-polar, and have known him for a number of years. We have been close, and apart. I have seen what bi-polar can do and has done. Books are a good place to start. But, I would recommend talking to someone who knows everything about your situation, someone who has been, or is going, through it.
Please, as I said before, it doesn’t matter what you say, just let it out. Don’t worry about what others think. If they are real friends, they will understand. If they don’t understand, then they weren’t worth the time. And you are right, those that are real friends, will ask questions and ask you for more information. Don’t worry about writing to your audience. Most here understand. Just open a posting, and start writing. If you don’t want to do that, open an e-mail and send it to me. (I may take a day or two to get back to you, but I will. - That is a promise.)
I congradulate you on even the attempt to go to a group. It may not be your cup of tea at the moment, but you never know what may happen. You may be uncomfortable, but go a few times. You may hear something that will unlock the truth. If you don’t go, you’ll never know what you may have missed.
You may find it hard to put your thoughts down. But, as long as you put them down, it is better than saying nothing at all. As far as I am concerned, what’s done is done. You (nor I) can change the past. What is wrong, is only in the eyes of the sayer. Not keeping in touch with those not around you, or meet with you on a daily or weekly base, is not as easy to do as most think. We all have our personal lives and problems to deal with. This does not mean that we don’t think of you, nor you us. You do care. This entry shows that. Maybe you don’t care to do it everyday, but once in a while is enough for me. (Look at my own journal for the scattering of entries.) Yes, as I said, you do care, as the posts show as well as feeling bad about not posting more. I am sorry to hear that you are lonely. I wish that there was something that I could say or do to reduce the feeling.
I think that you are dealing with this in a good way. Talking about it is a good start to resolving it. There have been many times that I have thought that I was burnt out. Not wanting to do anything. Just wanting to sleep all the time. Maybe not as bad as you are having it, but I can relate. Taking things a day at a time is sometimes the only way to deal with life. In fact that is how I deal with everyday. ‘Yesterday can’t be changed, and tomorrow will never get here.’ As for the rest of the paragraph beginning with “Before I met Enoch,…” I don’t know the backstory here, so I can’t reply with much. But, as to focusing on the bi-polar stuff, that could be a good starting point.
As for myself, I understand your position and situation. Therefore I hold nothing against you. To me, it doesn’t matter if the ‘friendship energies’ are equal between us. I will still give as much as I have, if not more. If you don’t return it in kind, that does not change the friendship that I have with you. Again as for myself, as I can only speak for myself and express my own opinion, I don’t care what you say, the dact that you are talking to me, that there is the free flow of communication, is all that matters to me.
Hun, I take everything that people say to me with a grain of salt, some with a truckload. I don’t take things at face value. I try to understand fully what that person is saying, not only the words but the frame of reference and viewpoint that the person is coming from. I know that the depressions are real, and can be VERY severe. I know this from personal experience. I have a friend that is bi-polar, and have known him for a number of years. We have been close, and apart. I have seen what bi-polar can do and has done. Books are a good place to start. But, I would recommend talking to someone who knows everything about your situation, someone who has been, or is going, through it.
Please, as I said before, it doesn’t matter what you say, just let it out. Don’t worry about what others think. If they are real friends, they will understand. If they don’t understand, then they weren’t worth the time. And you are right, those that are real friends, will ask questions and ask you for more information. Don’t worry about writing to your audience. Most here understand. Just open a posting, and start writing. If you don’t want to do that, open an e-mail and send it to me. (I may take a day or two to get back to you, but I will. - That is a promise.)
I congradulate you on even the attempt to go to a group. It may not be your cup of tea at the moment, but you never know what may happen. You may be uncomfortable, but go a few times. You may hear something that will unlock the truth. If you don’t go, you’ll never know what you may have missed.
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