Remember the Bliss
Well, chaos and uncertainty aside, there are some good things going on right now, that I can try to focus on.
Devin is, for the most part, a perfect dream. We will not speak of defecation, but otherwise her boundary testing is fairly minimal and seems to manifest the worst at bedtime, surprise. BUT I've gotten better at sticking to my guns and we've been in bed pretty consistently by 10pm all week. ... Yes, I know. But it's the small victories, yes? The little things.
She's started a ballet class at her grandparents' park district (I think) and I could not be more happy for her. She LOVES her preschool. She's just... amazing. This truly is a GREAT age. Everything is exciting, everything is new and big and WOW. She loves what I crochet her. She loves our physical play and is REALLY excited to be tickled, or tossed about around my body <3. She loves to come home and tell me all about dance class or whatever else she's been up to. Her language skills are, to me, remarkable and her vocab is wonderful. Her dexterity is improving too - she can zip her own coat no problem, dress and undress herself with minimal help (multiple times a day ;)), make jewelry, and she's getting much better at coloring inside the lines. And just the other day she asked to practice letters with me, and while messy, she IS writing recognizably now!! *squees*
She's still my little diva, with a little drama queen thrown in for good measure. She LOVES to pose for pictures. She is, as mentioned, the dress up queen. She is reciting back to me now her favorite stories and songs, leaning them after so much repetition. I think she knows all of Part of Your World now, and Rainbow Connection isn't that far off ;). She LOVES books and comics. She'll play monsters with me :D. She'll curl up to watch Nexflix on me. She's great when we're out, loves to go to the movies or window shop, adores belly dance shows... I just can NOT get over this kid. Seeing her excited makes me excited, watching how her brain works and what she thinks about and what she questions, watching her grow just fills me with joy. She's started to ask, a little, about religion and angels and existential things like that, and talking about it all to her is just... amazing. The only guilt I have right now is that I've been so sick on and off since Thanksgiving, and *I* am tired of hearing me tell her that I'm too tired to play, Mommy needs to rest. Damnit. But she is the absolute light of my life and she's simply amazing <3. I could go on and on and on... hehe.
Right then. Other good things ;).
I was able, before I knew about the job thing, to catch up on my comics that were waiting for me, so I've been reading and remembering why I love these stories so much. <3. I also bought my tribal rev class, the one I'll be able to take before Albie's wedding, so that was pretty rad. Even if it's only 1 day I'm RIDICULOUSLY stoked to see my belly dance girls, like woah, and I hope I get to see a bunch of them Thurs. I've started crocheting again, and have since finished 1 hat for Devin that has 3 (so far) interchangeable flowers. I'm making her a Hello Kitty hat too, and will make a headband to go with the flowers as well.
So, after 2 delicious episodes of Being Human tonight I was on Stumble Upon, and Stumbled upon a milk chai recipe, so the rest of my night will involve a cup or 2 of that, with a few Fables comics, then I crash. T-2 shifts till D day, starting tomorrow. I will hold on to my happy place and see where the winds take me from here.
Devin is, for the most part, a perfect dream. We will not speak of defecation, but otherwise her boundary testing is fairly minimal and seems to manifest the worst at bedtime, surprise. BUT I've gotten better at sticking to my guns and we've been in bed pretty consistently by 10pm all week. ... Yes, I know. But it's the small victories, yes? The little things.
She's started a ballet class at her grandparents' park district (I think) and I could not be more happy for her. She LOVES her preschool. She's just... amazing. This truly is a GREAT age. Everything is exciting, everything is new and big and WOW. She loves what I crochet her. She loves our physical play and is REALLY excited to be tickled, or tossed about around my body <3. She loves to come home and tell me all about dance class or whatever else she's been up to. Her language skills are, to me, remarkable and her vocab is wonderful. Her dexterity is improving too - she can zip her own coat no problem, dress and undress herself with minimal help (multiple times a day ;)), make jewelry, and she's getting much better at coloring inside the lines. And just the other day she asked to practice letters with me, and while messy, she IS writing recognizably now!! *squees*
She's still my little diva, with a little drama queen thrown in for good measure. She LOVES to pose for pictures. She is, as mentioned, the dress up queen. She is reciting back to me now her favorite stories and songs, leaning them after so much repetition. I think she knows all of Part of Your World now, and Rainbow Connection isn't that far off ;). She LOVES books and comics. She'll play monsters with me :D. She'll curl up to watch Nexflix on me. She's great when we're out, loves to go to the movies or window shop, adores belly dance shows... I just can NOT get over this kid. Seeing her excited makes me excited, watching how her brain works and what she thinks about and what she questions, watching her grow just fills me with joy. She's started to ask, a little, about religion and angels and existential things like that, and talking about it all to her is just... amazing. The only guilt I have right now is that I've been so sick on and off since Thanksgiving, and *I* am tired of hearing me tell her that I'm too tired to play, Mommy needs to rest. Damnit. But she is the absolute light of my life and she's simply amazing <3. I could go on and on and on... hehe.
Right then. Other good things ;).
I was able, before I knew about the job thing, to catch up on my comics that were waiting for me, so I've been reading and remembering why I love these stories so much. <3. I also bought my tribal rev class, the one I'll be able to take before Albie's wedding, so that was pretty rad. Even if it's only 1 day I'm RIDICULOUSLY stoked to see my belly dance girls, like woah, and I hope I get to see a bunch of them Thurs. I've started crocheting again, and have since finished 1 hat for Devin that has 3 (so far) interchangeable flowers. I'm making her a Hello Kitty hat too, and will make a headband to go with the flowers as well.
So, after 2 delicious episodes of Being Human tonight I was on Stumble Upon, and Stumbled upon a milk chai recipe, so the rest of my night will involve a cup or 2 of that, with a few Fables comics, then I crash. T-2 shifts till D day, starting tomorrow. I will hold on to my happy place and see where the winds take me from here.